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Lately I've been thinking a lot about what kind of person enjoys his solitude.
I've never really minded being alone. I was always the kid who was kind of wrapped up in his thoughts. But for some reason, I've always felt like something was wrong with me because of that.
I think that's why I've always related to the noir genre. The protagonist is always the anti-hero. The loner who lives by his own set of morals. And in the end, people aren't what they appear to be, and the bad guy always wins. But this never surprises the hero, and he just goes back to living in his own world.
Although I miss my friends in Florida, I feel like my mind is clearer these days. I haven't been distracted by social dynamics. I drink a lot less and read a lot more. I'm teaching myself everything I've wanted to learn but never had the time. I write and draw more, and I've even started painting. Slowly, I've been envisioning goals for myself that will get me into a completely different place as soon as a year from now. I'm no longer content with a stagnant life and I feel I owe it to myself to work towards some upgrades.
In the spring, I'm going to make a point to spend some afternoons in the park, laying in the grass and looking up at the clouds.
I've never really minded being alone. I was always the kid who was kind of wrapped up in his thoughts. But for some reason, I've always felt like something was wrong with me because of that.
I think that's why I've always related to the noir genre. The protagonist is always the anti-hero. The loner who lives by his own set of morals. And in the end, people aren't what they appear to be, and the bad guy always wins. But this never surprises the hero, and he just goes back to living in his own world.
Although I miss my friends in Florida, I feel like my mind is clearer these days. I haven't been distracted by social dynamics. I drink a lot less and read a lot more. I'm teaching myself everything I've wanted to learn but never had the time. I write and draw more, and I've even started painting. Slowly, I've been envisioning goals for myself that will get me into a completely different place as soon as a year from now. I'm no longer content with a stagnant life and I feel I owe it to myself to work towards some upgrades.
In the spring, I'm going to make a point to spend some afternoons in the park, laying in the grass and looking up at the clouds.