and all i can do is put on a fake smile and go through the fucking motions.

me: "sir, did you ask me to play with more air or less air ( Read more... )

ive been listening to the first matchbox 20 cd nonstop lately and so many of their words are hitting so close to home. :( my head is all screwed up. i over and under analize every single situation. my thought process is so broken.

I hang on everything about you
You think I'd settle down cuz I'm older
But I roll with the changes is all
I'm same ( Read more... )

im really determined to get my computer up and running...tonight. i know it wont happen but i just had a rush of frustration and i want it done now.
today was shit.
yesterday night was shit.
no one understands me. thats right, you had a bad read. you should fold. infact, i fold. damn poker talk is taking over my mind.
when will i smile and mean

pattyo11o: i still think about u.. i wouldnt say all the time.. but i do work in a grocery store.. in the food department if u catch my drift ( Read more... )

its easter.

its my last day of work. ice princess, here i come ( Read more... )

im completly 100% excited to go to work today. honest, i am. 28 kids, me, aaron whitaker, and i think lauren chatman at the ROLLER SKATING RINK. Yes. heaven knows im going to be lapping and tripping those kids left and right. haha. jk, ill be watching from the sidelines wishing i was athletic as a small child. im gay? but its okay, i woke up at six ( Read more... )

dad to china me to grandmas work butt off all week make lots of money worth the time i spend highly doubtful screaming children that im not looking forward to dad wanted me home tonight dont necessarily know why in bad mood wanted to have more time when padre people sad ( Read more... )

i wont disclose who i talked to tonight. but jeez. im really happy ( Read more... )