[j] Well, that wasn't the news I was expecting to hear this morning. Not even close.

Dec 04, 2005 13:32

It's been hours since Buffy told me, and I don't know. It feels even less real than when mom ( Read more... )

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watcher_pryce December 4 2005, 21:45:05 UTC
I'm terribly sorry about your loss, Dawn. You and I aren't really close, but if you ever need to talk...

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dawnie_summers_ December 4 2005, 21:54:16 UTC
Thanks, Wesley. That actually means a lot, you know? I'm not even sure what I'd talk about right now though. Everything feels too messed up for that.

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watcher_pryce December 4 2005, 21:56:34 UTC
Oh, yes. I'm sure you're rather confused at the moment. I wish I could give you some advice on how to deal with this, but I'm not the best person to do so.

Except, give it time. And talk to someone, anyone. It's not good to bottle things up inside. Or so I've heard

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dawnie_summers_ December 4 2005, 22:02:10 UTC
Confused. Not a bad way to put it. What am I supposed to feel right now is pretty much what I keep wondering. As much as I wished he was around, he never was. He was never a real father, but I know everyone's going to expect me to be sad, to be upset because he's gone... I don't know. I'm just really...not.

I guess after mom I just sorta gave up on the dream of him being someone I could count on.

Giving it time's a good idea. And I'll find someone to talk to later. Promise. It's not like I'm lacking people around who care about me, right?

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destructo_gal December 4 2005, 22:49:04 UTC
You've always got me. Even when I'm distracted and in my own world of confusion thanks to Angel and Spike I'm here. I don't know what I'd do without you Dawn.

And I know what you mean about Dad. I hate him, maybe more than I love him.

You and me need to go get mocha's and I can tell you exactly why I hate Emily so much.

If you don't feel like going to their place to talk to Emily I can go by myself, but you do kinda have to go to the Lawyers, reading of the will and all.

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dawnie_summers_ December 4 2005, 23:45:12 UTC
I know, Buffy. The feeling's totally mutual for the record. So, we're stuck together and we like it that way?

Exactly. That's not how we're supposed to feel about our dad. And it just makes me madder, that I can't seem to be anything but angry at him.

Mochas sound like a plan even without the Emily discussion. Just let me know when.

I didn't say I wouldn't go, I just said I wasn't gonna play nice if she got on my nerves. It'd be easier for you if I was there, right? So I'm going.

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destructo_gal December 4 2005, 23:47:22 UTC
Completely. You are stuck with me.

Me either really. I know i'm sad, a part of me is wailing inside over the daddy who used to take us to the zoo, but he hasn't been that daddy in a long time.

Sounds good. Soon. We need sisterly time. To talk about life and stuff I have no idea what's going on with you.

No I know that. I'd like you to be there but if you'd rather not I can go it alone. It's not a big deal.

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dawnie_summers_ December 5 2005, 04:10:21 UTC
So not complaining, Buffy. I like being stuck with you when it's compared to the alternative.

The daddy he hasn't been since long before he and mom got divorced, I know. It's like they became two different people to me. Which was sorta good...could wish for my dad back without being too devistated when he totally let us down. It was Hank doing it, not Daddy. Does that make sense?

Right, 'cause I know so much more about yours...taking off to Vegas randomly. What was that about? Not that it isn't completely awesome that you won money and all. But yes, sisterly time. Just us.

If you want me there, I'm there, okay? I'll deal.

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