I feel tremendously messed up right now, and I haven't the slightest idea why. Maybe it's the decrease in work hour. Maybe it was my boss essentially telling me that if a coworker's deal doesn't pan out next month the company's probably going to file for bankrupcy. Or maybe it's just time for me to hit Crazy again ( Read more... )

So due to my company's rather severe financial straits I've been cut to something like 24 hours a week, Friday having been eliminated. Hopefully the new guy will finally close a deal in December and I'll be back on, but for November we have to be cautious. If I were suicidal I'd stop by my old grooming salon and inquire about being seasonal help, ( Read more... )

So I'm kind of losing track of emails . . . still . . . or if I do reply they're invariably later than is my norm. I apologize, it's not personal. On top of background stress work has been a bitch this week, mostly because half the equipment in the office seems to be dying or malfunctioning simultaneously, and guess whose responsibility that is. ( Read more... )

Sorry that I'm just sort of letting email pile up in my inbox right now. I'm having a week of "I will $#@*%ing stab you" at work, and the weather is exacerbating things due to instilling a wonderful pressure-headache. I also seem to be at this weird point of exhaustion where naps are nonetheless are out of the question and sleep isn't much more ( Read more... )

Because some folks have been emailing me worried about the Nute situation: yes, I'm doing okay, I've just limited my conversation to private email. Having been spared a lot of direct contact and pretty thoroughly innoculated by my own experience with breakdowns, my reaction was considerably less severe than I suspect people feared. I wish everyone ( Read more... )

Thanks to A&E's depressing reality shows, I've been thinking about pathological hoarding. It's due to an anxiety disorder often classified as OCD, but I'm not sure I would automatically put it in the category; too specialized. (In fairness, in my mind trichotillomania falls under the same category. Significant crossover, but not quite the same.) ( Read more... )

Beginning to wonder if the reason I'm feeling so shitty is, as I had assumed, not the Malaise of the Soul that's been going around lately, but the fact I'm actually sick. Being a hypochondriac I distrust my first instincts on the matter, and I do tend to somatize like hell, so when I feel sick actual illness is usually at the bottom of my list of ( Read more... )

For the last week my teeth have been bothering me more than usual. Fearing cavities (since I haven't had a check up in, oh, a year and a half), I went to the dentist. After a cleaning, full-mouth x-ray and a check up I was judged to be perfectly fine. On one hand: Woo hoo, I don't have to pay for oral surgery! On the other hand: Shit, it's the ( Read more... )

Man, the OCD-brain is killing me this week. No matter how temperate I am, the thoughts don't leave, which makes for sleepless nights and zombie days. I think I should back off from following discussions for a while until my sanity reboots. That and read. Read much ( Read more... )

Saturday I was taken to see the 7 Shot Screamers (a local psychobilly band). They were pretty good, even though I couldn't understand a damn word they sang. Things I have learned ( Read more... )