Come and gone

[dawnwithrow6]

In May I found out MS was going to be at Chicago Con and told my husband I wanted to attend, since the dates of the convention were right around my birthday. I wanted a day or two away from the house, kids, laundry, cooking, dishes, groceries, sweeping, vacuuming, etc. I wanted time to remember life is more than running after this child, cleaning

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[jennickels]

I almost could have wrote this except I don't get money for my birthday (occasionally from my dad, last year he gave me $50 which I added to the money for Christmas presents for the kids he sent me--I did buy me a Subway sandwich, though). The most I get on my birthday is dinner out with the family which entails a bunch of fighting, fits and my husband ignoring all of us in favor of his phone so I'm stuck taking care of everything. At home it's business as usual with cleaning, cooking and taking care of everyone.

They tell me to relax and "take the day off" but that just means I have a boatload of crap to do the next day because they sure as hell aren't going to do any of it on my birthday.

My husband promises me lots of things and then when the time rolls around to cash in on the promises he either changes his mind or flat our denies he ever promised anything so he doesn't have to take the blame for the disappointment. It sucks.

[dawnwithrow6]

Yes it does suck. I've had the, I'll take care of it, and then it requires work before or after the event that he's taking care of, etc. I'd take the boatload of stuff to do if I could get out of here for a day or two, honestly. It's been 10 plus years, I'd definitely take the work later in order to get my brain in some semblance of order for a few moments.

[discodiva76]

{{{{{{{Honey}}}}}}} it's so hard isn't it?...sending my love and hugs to you....sorry you had a crap birthday....and yeah the Con would have been awesome for you in terms of meeting Michael....wish I could have been there for you as well.....hang in there, hopefully a time will come where you can see him....

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

P.S. hopefully if you get to go to one, I can be there too!!....I'll REALLY show you how to have a great Con time trust me!!...:P

[dawnwithrow6]

We'll have to make it a plan! I want to meet the sane people from the net, not the nut jobs. I have enough nuttiness in my life, don't need it in my face when I'm trying to find the sane patches in my brain for a day or two.

Yes, it is hard, when the things that happen make you feel like you should wear a uniform and a name tag. I love my job, I love my kids, I love my house, and I love my husband. I just need some time to ME to keep that love going and not be totally drained and unwired. Gotta refill myself in order to be able to keep filling up everyone else!

[discodiva76]

Yeah I've been reading a bit about some of the nuttier ones at Chi-con this w/end....have to say what I'm hearing doesn't surprise me, but some of it has shocked and in one place disgusted me......wtf is a woman doing kissing a married actor when she hugs him????....sheesh!!!....

I know just what it's like to feel like a nurse, slave and housekeeper rolled into one.....the verbal punching bag is harder, even when you know and understand what a debilitating illness can do to someone with added depression and pain....but it still hurts to walk on those eggshells all the time...

Any time you need a shoulder to cry, scream or vent on, pm me either here or dm....and I can send you my email....I have Skype too, but don't use it that much....:)

xxxx

[dawnwithrow6]

I have Skype, but not the chat or video capabilities, so I've been told it's worthless for the most part. Would have to borrow daughter's Ipod to use it I guess. Now to get over the I hate how I look 3/4 of the time issue.

I tried to be mature and let it go approach on all this, but with the way the weekend went, it was basically impossible for me. It's hard to walk on eggshells, yes, and hard to not blow up when the simple things are always taken for granted, and always expected at the same time.