Sick and sad. What more will it take to make this relationship work? To be healthy? To have a clean house, a functioning family? To not stay up so late because I dread waking up in the morning to another miserable day at work? Or to another fight? I'm trying sooo hard. Why can't I do anything?

Yesterday I cleaned my house and my room, went to a wedding, went out to dinner with the fam and Alan, and then the Weare Patriotic Celebration and fireworks with brothers and Alan. Today, Alan and I went to a new church in Goffstown. We were each going to do different things afterwards, but neither thing worked out so we just kinda hung around my ( Read more... )

Wow, there are a lot of people that I totally love and I rarely ever tell them. 
I should do that...
Eventually.

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The best part about working at a daycare?
Catching conjunctivitis from one of the kids, and not being able to go back so I don't give it to more kids!
Day off! Day off!

Except now I have to go to the doctor. :-(

So tired, kinda dizzy, not sunburned ( Read more... )

So I was driving home from a job interview today in my brother's car with a tax form and an employee manual, and I decided that I need to get away. Far away. To get these movies and fights out of my head and have some original thoughts, and I have known this for a long time, of course, which is why I was so addicted to Travelocity.com towards the ( Read more... )

Wow, I'm actually thinking about going to bed before midnight tonight. A strange occurrence, I know. Guess it's time to update my faithful reader(s?) with My Amazing(?) Life ( Read more... )

I am the heart, I need a heartbeat

I spent today pretty much alone wrapped in a wet blanket of depression. Hung out in bed for a while, hung out on the porch for a while, hung out in the tub for a while, went for a frustrating drive, just to Goffstown because gas prices apparently have started to suck since the last time I drove around. For some ( Read more... )

....Only works when you actually realize you're in Jail?

Woke up in a bad mood. Think it had something to do with my brothers charing my room, combined with the rain and the overall feeling of being overwhelmed and hopeless, and being sick. Speaking of which, hm, I'm feeling better! Woot.

I think I should find a t-shirt that says VIRGIN right on the ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say anymore, really. I'm sick, I have to pack, I'm sick of stupid fights and my nose being a faucet. I don't know what to do with my life, or my summer, I don't want to return to the chaos that is my house. I'm kinda honored that I'm the one people call in an emergency, but I'm sure it can't be very healthy. I can't believe how ( Read more... )