I can feel it. Im going to be ok. Only took 7 fucking months a total break down and getting drunk but hey I feel better.I skipped work today. I was way to hungover, I feel better now tho. Well I finally got some ciggarettes so im going to go smoke.

I made an ass of myself.I got way to drunk, and called jess atleast 3 times. I dunno what the hell was going through my head. All i can remember her saying is that she didnt really love me. Ugh. Well at least i kno the truth now, even tho it hurts. I cant beleive i did so much for her and loved her so much when she was just simply toying with my

Ugh, I think Im going to have to give up two friends in order to get over an ex-girlfriend. Man this really sucks. Without them I have no one. My god life sucks. Last night after hearing about the kiss and watching her flirt I just wanted to die. I came home and popped about 8 Zannex, then followed it with a few shots of Jack. I woke up with ( Read more... )

OMG what a fucked up night. I CANT FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE. I have to move or im going to lose my damn mind. Started out having a great night with aubrey, and even got an compliment from Jess. But my god as soon as J started flirting with A i just wanted to grab my hat and leave soooo bad. Fuck quiting smoking I had 5 on the way home. Why do i ( Read more... )

Well looks like I have been sucked into the world of live journals along with all my other friends.

Man life just cant be nice to me. If its not one thing its another. My car is falling apart before my eyes, Im always alone, work is awful and Im just sick of average. I want happiness, i want my friends back and I want love.