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hi...can't sleep...thought i'd stick another update in here. Umm...lately...just been hangin out with the guys...oo yay astros! i went over to nikki's monday nite with all the guys to watch the game...which was crap. but then went back last nite and yay...they won! :D had sooooo much fun hangin out with all them...except for a couple ppl who i wasn't expecting to be there but oh well. and umm...at skewl...its been okay i guess. been tired from bein up so late lk all wk...but i dont mind...oh, i've heard that people have been talking about me, which is always nice to find out. supposedly me and dakota have been goin out...haha news to me. and i barely found this out yesterday...thought that was interesting. of course we're not...and won't ever be. despite what ppl have been saying, or tellin me , or watever...pushing it. its not gona happen. as much as i'd like to not be alone anymore...i dont want him. umm other than that lovely junk...same old crap. dad was actually nice for a couple days...that ended when i got home today. i wish he'd just pick a mood already and stick to it. oh well. i've been tryin to have fun and be in a good mood...but its really hard. i hate that i have to try so hard. i dont wana try anymore.
♥ I hate how I miss
how everything was...
♥ Its sorta like one of those 3rd grade crushes where you're too shy to tell him you like him.
And everytime he smiles at you, it somehow just makes your day.
♥ Always behave like a duck:
keep calm and unruffled on the
surface, but paddle like hell underwater.
♥ Sometimes what you call nothing I call everything.
♥ “At-heart, I have always been a coper, I've mostly been able to walk around with my wounds safely hidden, & I've always stored up my deep depressive episodes for the weeks off when there was time to have an abbreviated version of a complete breakdown. But in the end, I'd be able to get up & on with it, could always do what little must be done to scratch by."