Be careful what you wish....

[dceptivenocence]

...I wished I couldn't feel anything...Well guess what...That wish came true, and now I regret it....I thought it would be better if I could just stop feeling, and in a way, it has been, but it has also just been making things even more confusing than they were before...I hate this

Comments

[ellefemme]

Lynette, as much as you may hate being the way you are right now, I love you just the same, and I believe that I speak for the rest of your friends who love you dearly when I say that we will always love you, regardless of how fucked up you may be.
That said, I think that the additional LJ would be a VERY good idea. Writing things down in their entirety, whether you let anyone, everyone, or no one see them, is EXTREMELY helpful in dealing with the feelings that we all have. You are a writer, so I am sure that this applies doubly for you.
I am very glad that we got to talk last night, and I am glad it helped. Cry, Lyn. It hurts at first, but in the end, you feel much better. Crying is an emotional release. I may be wrong, but I think that the reason that you're numb is because you have too many emotions in you to deal with, and your body is ignoring it to try to block any pain. That won't do you any good in the long or short of it, so cry, and release the pressure

[milame]

I agree with Lucy. Remember that we are always here for you when you need us. Lots and lots of love...Iris