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This made me sad.
It’s a post by Isobel Wren (isobelwren) in a ModelMayhem forum in a thread called “embarassed about being a glamour model?” (June 23, 2007) When I tell people I model they tend to give me a once over and say, "YOU model?" or become scarily familiar with me, asking too many questions or assuming that I'm an easy lay b/c I'm a model (that's not why I'm an easy ( Read more... ) -
Folly to be wise?
Saturday night my wife and I were eating in a restaurant, and there was a couple nearby who reminded me of us when we were younger. I really don’t wish I were young again. Maybe if I were someone else. But I don’t want to relive the last 20 years. And I don’t want to be the person I was 20 years ago. I think I was happier then than I am now. ( Read more... ) -
Echo/Narcissus
It’s so strange. Sometimes it seems silly that I ever cared at all about Isobel, and other times I’m so in love with her that it makes me cry to look at her picture. Je ne comprends pas. -
Narcissus
For a while last night I didn’t care about Isobel. As if I were seeing myself from outside and thinking, “It’s silly to care about this girl who hardly knows you, and even sillier to worship her. Why are you doing all these silly things?” At the same time I had this sort of “mad scientist” feeling that I sometimes get. Like, “When I complete my ( Read more... ) -
The Paradox of Masculinity
The short version of this argument was just long enough for a Twitter update, but I’ll expand it a little here ( Read more... ) -
Echo
Isobel Wren is leaving Boston, and it hurts. It hurts like hell, and I don’t know why. It’s not as if I would see her very often (or, for that matter, at all) if she stayed in the Boston area. And it’s not as if I will never get a chance to meet her because she’s moving away. (She’s going to be back to visit now and then.) But I feel like Echo ( Read more... ) -
francesca
...nessun maggior dolore
Che ricordarsi del tempo felice
Ne la miseria...
So I guess I'm lucky that my life has sucked all along... -
Blackberry blogging
I'm standing in line for "The Last Mistress" (English title; I won't give the French title because I'm sure to spell it wrong) at the Boston MFA. On Saturday night (as I now remember from last year) there is always a long line of ticketholders waiting for the last film to get out. I could be studying Dante (checking the text of Canto V of the ( Read more... ) -
antijealousy
Seeing that I’m married, I have no business falling in love with somebody else. But if you’re going to fall in love with someone besides your spouse, it’s always better if it’s someone with whom you have no chance of ever having a relationship. So I don’t feel too bad about the moral implications. I mean, it hurts, but it’s sort of a good kind ( Read more... )