( Nathan CANNOT Read This (Food Related) )

I'm up to 3 ru and cokes and one glass of red wine to see if I can get drunk or not.

Soeone had better be leaughing. Soeone had better be having fun with this, because I'; not. I slit my wrists because of you, you basdtards. I hate you. And sstill,. I'm the one who's the "bad guy".
Fuck you.

Tonight is Christmas Day Night, and our stove caught on fire. Mom put it on auto-clean when there was a lot of fat in the bottom of the oven-part, and it caught. Smoke piled through our house! It was nuts ( Read more... )

,Did you know it's possible to feel dirty and disgusting on Christmas Day of all times?

I got everything I asked for, and much more, but I feel horrible. I'm in that dark place where I sit around and cry and watch Perfect Blue as self-punishment.

In any case, I hope everyone else is having a much better Christmas than me! I can't wait to see some of ( Read more... )

This is the best Christmas gift I will receive this year.

I got on the school bus home early today. The bus driver and I struck up a conversation - and all of a sudden, he's telling me his troubles! Do you remember when random people would just open up to me out of no where? Do you remember how much I loved it back then? This sixty-year-old man who ( Read more... )

I'll have this brief, positive moment - just an hour or two during the day.

And then I'll have a flashback, and it all goes to crap again.

I mean, I was doing OK at acting positive today. I really was. But now...

None of this was supposed to happen.

I'm still really... down. It's not getting better. I guess it didn't help that I logged into the LJ I used during the beginning of my breakdown yesterday. Back from 2008 - 2009. A long time ago - lightyears away. I understand that many of those relationships ended not just because of my breakdown, but by how much certain people changed (or how they ( Read more... )

Happy birthday, Nathan.

When it comes to guys, you're high quality :)

Which female Clannad character are you? newly edited: April 26th, 2010 newly edited: March 19th, 2011
Tomoyo Sakagami
Your incredibly strong and a good leader. You have a good heart and don't like to fight. But you will not refuse a challenge but will keep it self-defense.

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