My knuckles are so messed up, it hurts to make a fist. They actually look fairly okay...other than the center one is VERY swollen. The weird discoloration is gone...and i think i may have over reacted. I think I may have only broken my center one. I have to re-wrap them tonight. Nothing is going to take away the pain so no use in complaining

I hate how I look. Every morning i wake up and look at myself in the mirror and I hate it. I have lost so much weight and it's not going to stop. No matter what I do I am just going to waste away and sometime I dont even know why I bother. But, the reason constantly is reminding me why...I fight not for me, but for those I love ( Read more... )

I feel so strange. I feel like my head is nothing more than a balloon let go from a young childs grip. Everything in my head is swirling around in my head. Its so hard to sort everything out. Its so strange to have everything there, but at the same time having it all scattered and un able to be obtained. I dont want to go into work right now ( Read more... )

No matter how many times i say it, i know it could never make your problems go away

Sometimes I get the feeling that something isnt being said. Like it is being kept from me and I don't understand why. Fear? Love? Its kryptic and so simple at the same time. No matter what it is it produces a linering feeling deep from inside of me that resurfaces itself, what could it be. I will probably never know ( Read more... )

1825 days...ugh...
43800 hours
2628000 minutes
157680000 seconds.

I want more

Time to continue. Ive really been thinking a lot about moral relativism, cultural relativism, etc. Interesting stuff and i know where i stand on all of it. I have realized i am a jealous person and i also believe that everyone to some extent is. I get jealous about the weirdiest stuff ever and what seems to affect me seems to almost be random ( Read more... )

This is going to be a random entry ( Read more... )

It would be so easy to just lay things down and give up.

I miss my Mel...