Now I shall spontaneously combust
Darn I really want school to end. I am so, SO done with the semester. It has not been an ideal semester. I'm going to have to work really hard for the next three weeks in order to make my grades look like less of a disaster. My roommate/BFF J and I have not been off to a good start, with her having mental breakdowns every week during the first few months of school, I kinda got dragged along because I had to comfort her and tell her she's doing fine. Her and her indecisiveness about her future pisses me off more than ever because she's constantly complaining that she's wasted years of her life studying a field she's not passionate about, yet now that she's FINALLY in the field she loves (art), she's not working on making up those years she lost. She has an artistic talent, and with practice and some tweaking she would be phenomenal, yet she's NOT DOING ANYTHING except getting all depressed when she sees artists her age producing beautiful works of art and getting paid to do commissions etc etc.
One thing I think that really slows her down is her parents. They're incredibly disappointed in her dropping out of her masters program and going into art. Her dad refuses to talk to her and her mom would be all passive aggressive every.single.fucking.week when they talk. It drives me insane because I have to listen to them talk, and listen to J sprout bullshit after bullshit and being uncertain about what she wants with her life. I had told my mom when she visited in July that I know what I want: I'm going after what I'm passionate about. She had been trying to persuade me for years to do something else, but after she heard what I had to say, she went home and thought about it. A couple months later she called back and told me that she and my dad are fully supportive and proud to hear that I've already made plans for my future.
J is 5 years older than me. So yeah, if you do the math, you'll realize she's nearing 30. After I finally got her to realize that life is too short to waste on getting a safe job and living an average life, she decides to pursue her childhood dream in art-- yet she can't bring herself to put her foot down with her parents about what she really wants. And when I ask her about her plans for the future, she keeps on telling me she doesn't know. It's infuriating.
In fandom news: I'm working on a few Sherlock fan vids, but I keep on feeling conflicted about finishing them. I want more footage to work on, but that would mean I'll have to wait until fall of next year to have series 2 episodes to play with. I don't think I can wait a year :(
Oh and I have a huge Sherlock/John fan fic in progress, how many of you are okay with reading about child abuse and massive amounts of violence? It's obviously an AU dark fic, but I'm hesitant about actually writing it because I'm afraid that people would be REALLY disturbed by it. A good example of how distressing it might be would be the famous (infamous?) Aftershocks Series from House. I suppose if you can stomach that, my fic should be manageable?? But I'm not sure, child abuse is quite trigger-y and people are pretty sensitive when it comes to children :/
One thing I think that really slows her down is her parents. They're incredibly disappointed in her dropping out of her masters program and going into art. Her dad refuses to talk to her and her mom would be all passive aggressive every.single.fucking.week when they talk. It drives me insane because I have to listen to them talk, and listen to J sprout bullshit after bullshit and being uncertain about what she wants with her life. I had told my mom when she visited in July that I know what I want: I'm going after what I'm passionate about. She had been trying to persuade me for years to do something else, but after she heard what I had to say, she went home and thought about it. A couple months later she called back and told me that she and my dad are fully supportive and proud to hear that I've already made plans for my future.
J is 5 years older than me. So yeah, if you do the math, you'll realize she's nearing 30. After I finally got her to realize that life is too short to waste on getting a safe job and living an average life, she decides to pursue her childhood dream in art-- yet she can't bring herself to put her foot down with her parents about what she really wants. And when I ask her about her plans for the future, she keeps on telling me she doesn't know. It's infuriating.
In fandom news: I'm working on a few Sherlock fan vids, but I keep on feeling conflicted about finishing them. I want more footage to work on, but that would mean I'll have to wait until fall of next year to have series 2 episodes to play with. I don't think I can wait a year :(
Oh and I have a huge Sherlock/John fan fic in progress, how many of you are okay with reading about child abuse and massive amounts of violence? It's obviously an AU dark fic, but I'm hesitant about actually writing it because I'm afraid that people would be REALLY disturbed by it. A good example of how distressing it might be would be the famous (infamous?) Aftershocks Series from House. I suppose if you can stomach that, my fic should be manageable?? But I'm not sure, child abuse is quite trigger-y and people are pretty sensitive when it comes to children :/