i really want to belive me ranting on here is helping but in the end i just get pissed cuz its not like anyone reads these

i dont see the point writing here cuz im not one to bitch for no reason.. but last night sucked i miss my friends that made me feel like me like nate mike and zimm idk i lost a big chunck of my self and i fucking hate who i am ( Read more... )

im basically about to say fuck it i mean fuck this whole caring about people shit all it does is fucking bite you in the ass end the end...... remember when ppl cared to try

ever have one of those nights when you feel like nothing is getting better.... i dont know how to pull myslef out of this mess because im not even sure what happened to me ( Read more... )

you look so sad
your eyes fixed forward
as you shut off the world

you ask me
"Am i pretty"
you have no idea

in my eyes
you have never changed
your beautiful the way you are

my mind is cloudy
but i can see you clear
tomorrow is another battle

keep your head up, baby
and i hope i find you in time
to say the words i wont hear back...

this place is slowly killing everyone there is no denyin\ that but recently i have realized im so fuced up that i dont care if im numb and the only things that make me happy (mostly females) all have something that makes me keep my distance... never before have i realized that female treat their feelings like babies... as in you never ask to hold ( Read more... )

as you wisper my name ( Read more... )

life seems to have made teh decision for me, me and rebecca are no longer against it and im not sure how i feel.... i dont like fell happy but im not really that said either. its like im sad that someone who knew me sowell doesnt want to be with me but also its ok because there are people who wanna be with me, so idk ( Read more... )

im sorry, to any one who cares, i know i update on a very ramdom time frame. things have been kinda crazy lately. i mean not really bad. i had court it turned out ok, i am just gonna need to find some new hobby or some new friends to keep me busy ( Read more... )

so tomorrow is my birthday... but my court date is wed so idk i have been in a great mood lately so idk if its that cuz things with rebecca arnt really better but at the same time im starting to resent her... not b/c that she doesnt know waht to do, but like wtf did i do? yeah exactly she doesnt even know ( Read more... )