-my phone is off i can receive messages but not send them, same as phone calls ( Read more... )

but i dont think they has ever had this sort of guilt ( Read more... )

i can never talk when i really need to...

sometimes i really hate my self

and i fucking hate this vicious cycle it creates more than anything i wnat to be happy again so i can enjoy all the great things i have and the people around me why cant i just do that what the fuck is wrong with me

so inadiquite

really depressed

today is the one year annivesery of when my great grandfather died

i was really close to him and he is the only imediete family member i have had die and gone to his funeral for.

even though we talked it still made me feel awful again....i am sorry

so over the past few days i think i ahve been readlly crawling back from the slump that i was in i am enjoying the thought of being in love again more and more and am able to embrace it more and more with out being afriad of being hurt ( Read more... )

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this is my strength from with in, this is who i am


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so much has happened in the past week, i suspended for the first time, i did a two point suicide, which is 2 hooks in my bakc i hung for almost an hour ( Read more... )

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i just ate 4 pounds of raviloi ......
can you say WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?