Circus attraction

[deadkurage]

I am not used to be stared at by people on the streets anymore.... as if i were some strange kind of animal or a circus attraction or something alike.
..... that's ever since i don't have pink hair and  don't wear colourful, striped tights or unconventional/colourful clothes anymore.

But today i went out to buy myself a chocolate muffin at starbucks

Comments

[geist_alouqua]

I don't know how you can be so immune to other people staring at you
I can't
I look at the floor while walking just because I hate it

I'm glad you don't feel as uncomfortable as I do, so you can wear your lovely clothes whenever you want

[deadkurage]

Well i was used to some people being mean to me even if i started to be like them, to be invisible so that they would ignore me.

I think it's when i realized that some years ago, i stopped caring what they think. :D So now i wear whatever i find pretty, and try to be strong. And i really feel better wearing what i like, it makes me confident.

But..... i also often look at the floor when i walk on the streets, and i'm unable to talk to strangers etc. Clothes are the only thing i'm not shy about~

[medialuz]

wahrscheinlich sind es nicht mal alles abwertende, sondern auch bewundernde blicke, einfach weil es etwas frisches und neues ist, was man halt nicht so häufig sieht. Ignorier die blicke und genieß es deine sachen zu tragen, dazu sind sie schließlich da.

[deadkurage]

<3

ach ich weiss nicht, ich bezweifle, dass es bewundernde Blicke sind, vllt auch garnicht mal unbedingt abwertend..... einfach so, als würden sie irgend eine Zirkusattraktion betrachten.

Was unhöflich ist. Aber egal. Du hast recht, es macht trotzdem freude zu tragen was einem gefällt :D.

[pura_sora]

you know! I think it's not related to the skirt ~
I have polka dots white and black tights and each time I wear it, everybody stares at me XD

But you had pink hair?? oooh!

[deadkurage]

yes i had pink hair, but only the fringe, i wouldn't dare to ruin my entire hair with pink colour..... it was a hommage (or however you write that XD) to hide at first. But then i was known as the "pink-haired girl" everywhere and i felt it became a part of my identity XDXD. I had it fir 4 or 5 years, and a year ago i decided that i want to look more serious, and i got tired of the colour anyway.

Oh but i wear those tights nearly every day and not many people are staring at them ._. (or maybe i just don't notice it?... hm). Anyway, polkatods are love ne <3

[pura_sora]

wow... I'd never dare do anything to my hair... that's cool!
(though I always wanted to have white hair because I found it totally pretty... but well bleaching your hair damage it a lot and always end up being strange when your real color starts to show again)

Polkadots are total love, but I can swear you that it attracts attention XD
well I guess that's also because I always wear high heels shoes or platform ballerinas with these tights so I'm about 180cm and it must be scary or smth XDD (because people look at me in a very strange way)