Time alone...
OKP's post made me think about what my expectations of "alone time" are these days. I don't think it is nearly as hard for me as it is for her because I've had a number of months to get used to it. Usually my only human interaction during OKP's work day is from six o'clock to nine o'clock when she comes home from work and even then she is usually exhausted from her day. Now please don't misunderstand me here, she has every right to be tired and that should not be an issue at all, I only mention it to say that even that interaction can be at times somewhat subdued as she tries to relax from a trying day at work. For me the loneliness is something all together different. It derives from not having someone to hold, caress, hug, or kiss on the cheek when I come to bed. Not having someone to look at when I invariably wake up at a quarter til four in a cold sweat because someone was trying to kill me (again!). OKP is the corporeal embodiment of any self encouragement that I've ever mustered and where ever she goes, there too goes all my confidence.
-DD
-DD