whoa, lj still exists

 dear life,
i know i jumped the gun on claiming to be happy, and was silly to think i could "have it all", but really? did you really have to throw THIS in the mix? im sorry, but i am not appreciative.

sincerely,
courtney

i don't understand how being stressed over my own situation is in any way placing blame on somebody else. there is no blame, shit just happens. but evidently, regardless of what i think or say, im a shitty person for having feelings and being stressed, because for some reason i can't understand, it equals me placing blame on someone and hurting ( Read more... )

 any of ya into the band elegant machinery? would you go see them if they played in seattle?

 i are so effin' in love, it even makes myself sick....

in other news, i don't work tomorrow, so figure i should take the opportunity to go out on a saturday night... what's going on? who's going where?

 steak and strippers, 2pm on tuesday. be there!

<3

 going to pdx monday night, for a shoot tuesday morning! it's been WAY too long since i've been down there!

hope to see lots of people <3

 so, we got back together. bliss. giddiness. happiness. all of it, the past 3 days have been filled with them. better this time, perfect this time, ready this time.... only problem is, his friends aren't accepting of me, or him being in a relationship. he tells me over and over that its not my fault, and i shouldn't worry, but it kills me to watch ( Read more... )

just loooooooooooooooooooooves getting shoved out of peopel's lives for miscommunication! woot!

i really need to learn how to let people go :/