(no subject)
its the first time i dont write to gain feedback and its for one reason...
a reason i never thought i would ever be writing about.
i feel bad, because i dont know what happened, but i know
there was some damage done. and i know for sure that i had said
something beforehand to prevent it, but it was never taken into consideration.
which makes the existing pain even greater on both sides. But the most pain
comes from me... i wish i could do something without having to do something
too barberic. never raised that way, never went through with anything that way,
so why would i resolve something that way.
the pain only grows when i began to think every possible thing that could have occured,
and i blame one person for that, my mother... she the only one i know that reacts that
way, and although i never wanted to think of myself thinking the way she does, i have to
finally admit that thats the way things are.
-deadmundo