I'm tired of feeling like complete shit. It's constant. I've beginning to answer to everything that happens in life, to the solution of "oh I could just kill myself" nothing matters. Nothing will get better, Nothing will improve. I can't say things will necessarily get worse. They will, in the least stay the same. Stay dramatic, yet dull ( Read more... )

Where did everybody go.. :(

Cops came, saw my bong. With the shrooms beside it..luckily they didn't notice that. They said the neighbors called in, and they heard everything when they were outside. They told me danny assaulted me. Even if I'm in denial. HAHAHA ( Read more... )

The hospital keeps phoning my mother. Asking how I am, I'm not supposed to know. They continuously tell her, Sarahs been raped. Something bad has happened to her. Asking my mother who could have done this to be. Who lives in my house. Who has before. Man, nobody understands. No family, no boyfriends, no moms boyfriends. If one says yes, its not ( Read more... )

I have two job interviews tommorow, and I just got home from McDonalds. I'm bored, and I just ran out of weed ( Read more... )

She was once an innocent christian who drank once in awhile, until her turned her. She drank, and drank some more. He bought her more and more booze. He forced her to smoke that shit...... and now I've lost my mom. To Crack ( Read more... )

Danny ditched me, and I stayed home and did morphine. If he doesn't want to call, fine. I'll go to London.

I can only find pills that my grandfather needs. Painkillers that would get me fucked, yes... but their is no way in hell that I will risk him getting sick, over a stupid fix.

No meth today. (I guess its destined for me not to get started on that again)

Coke! :) its been a week, half ball here I come.

So I found two pill stashes so far. I just need to look up the names to see what kind of pills I will be taking.

I want to be high. So high. Down low though to be honest.

Currently I'm supposed to be at therapy.
I'm withdrawing pretty badly, but I'm not going to fix my withdrawels. Its been 5 days, and still going.