My Angel
Title : My Angel
Pairings : Maruda, slight Nakame
Ratings : PG-13
Warnings : Slightly angst, and as always, unbeta-ed... ^__^"
Summary : Yuichi made a mistake, and now he must pay to get his Tatsuya back...
A/N : for my lovely sis, kat_tundaisuki.... attempted angst; fail.. =__="
“I’m sorry, Tatsuya…”
Yuichi bangs his head continuously on the door, wishing that somehow it’ll make the younger man forgive him. But of course it’s useless. Tatsuya can’t see him. Yuichi just hopes that Tatsuya will at least hear him.
“I really regret this, Tatsuya.. Please, don’t do this to me..”
Hearing no response, Yuichi decides to make the easy approach. He smiles slightly before he whispers not so loudly, but visible for the younger one to hear. He hopes so.
“Tatsuya… do you still remember the day that I confessed to you..? Or rather, you confessed to me.?”
***“Tat-chan.!Wait.!”
Tatsuya spun around when he heard Kame’s voice yelling out for him. They just finished filming the Shounen Club for that night and Tatsuya decided that he badly wants his comfy bed right now. Although they haven’t debuted yet, KAT-TUN is far much busier than any other debuted Johnny’s group.
With a bag slinging on his shoulder, Tatsuya waits patiently for his youngest friend to approach. But what surprised him more is seeing Yuichi together with Kame, and did he saw a tint of blush on the oldest cheeks.?
“What is it.?” Tatsuya asked rather sleepily. He really got no time if they called him just to invite him out for a dinner.
“Well.. Go Maru.! Good luck.!”
With just that, Kame dashed out from the scene, leaving Yuichi and Tatsuya alone. Tatsuya was left dumbstruck at Kame’s antic and decided to stare at his best friend instead. He saw how Yuichi is fidgeting on his spot while rubbing his palms together.
“Well.? Do you have something to talk to me.? Since Kame leaves you here.”
Yuichi stares back at those mesmerizing orbs, and decided that he made a big mistake. Blush started to creep on his cheeks, showing how flustered he is with this situation. But when he remembered how long he has been bottled up this feeling, he rather spilled it out now. Heaving in a big breath, Yuichi towered over the petite Tatsuya with a determined face.
“I….I…lo…love….” Tatsuya quirks his brow when Yuichi keep stuttering on his words. That’s something new.
Seeing the adorable Tatsuya in front of him, Yuichi was sure he has blacked out already. So, instead, he’s saying one random thing. “I…love your black hair…”
“Huh.?” Tatsuya almost fall down when he heard that. He then played with his silky black hair while looking at Yuichi. “Well….Thanks..”
Tatsuya has this pang feeling inside, but he rather keep it for his own. Yuichi just smiles awkwardly at that.
“Maybe I should change it.” Tatsuya said out of nowhere, completely caught Yuichi off guard.
“Ehh..?? Why.?? I loved it.! Seriously.”
Tatsuya stares back at Yuichi with his sorrow eyes. Yuichi was sure his heart has stopped beating at that very moment.
“Because my hair is the only one that you love. I want you to love me, not the hair…” Tatsuya said in a whispery tone, but visible for Yuichi to hear.
Seeing how cute and adorable Tatsuya is, Yuichi suddenly hugs the younger man. Tatsuya almost falls off from his spot if not for Yuichi’s arms that hug him. He smells the strong yet sweet smell emitted from his best friend a.k.a crush, and he loves it.
“You want me to do that..?” Yuichi asked while still hugging Tatsuya. Tatsuya just did nothing and nods his head slightly.
Yuichi pulls away from the hug and cups both of Tatsuya’s cheeks. Before the younger one could say more, Yuichi leans down for a chaste kiss. A short kiss that showed how much he loves this black haired man.
Once they break the kiss, Tatsuya trails his lips and stares at Yuichi wide eyed. Did his crush just kissed him.? “Yuichi..? What..why..”
“I love you. I’m sorry that I’m late, but I love you.!”
***Yuichi giggled at his own story, and he didn’t know why a tear trickle down his cheek at that time. He made the biggest mistake today that hurt his love one’s feeling. And now he must pay for it.
“That day is the happiest day for my life. I never thought that you’ll love me back.” Yuichi paused and playing with his slender fingers animatedly. “I never thought that an angel will love me back. It’s a miracle, Tatsuya.”
“For me, you’re my angel. You’re the miracle that completes my life. I’m so stupid for doing that to you. I’m so stupid.!”
“Tatsuya…won’t you talk to me..? I look like a moron talking to nobody here.” Yuichi tried again, his heart filled with hope that the voice he’s been longing to will talk back and answered him.
“I….I really need another chance, Tatsuya.. And I promised that I won’t hurt you again if you give me that chance… I promised you..”
***“Yuichi.. Where are you going.?”
Tatsuya sit casually on the couch while his eyes followed wherever Yuichi moves. Yuichi just ignores his lover and proceeds to put on his jacket while checking out his phone. He looks like he’s in a hurry to leave their apartment. Tatsuya sighs slightly seeing his lover’s antic and walks to Yuichi slowly.
“Where are you going, silly.? You aren’t answering me.” Tatsuya hugs Yuichi from behind and snuggles into the other’s crook of neck. While he only wearing a boxer with an oversized shirt, Yuichi looks like he’s about going to a date. And he put on Tatsuya’s favorite perfume. Tatsuya fumed slightly in anger, nobody should smell that from his lover.
“Tatsuya.. I’m in a hurry.. I’ve got a meeting for the new show. And I have a drama shoot today.” Yuichi said in a hurry, his hands untangled the hug Tatsuya got around him.
Tatsuya sighs again and followed like an obedient puppy behind his lover. Yuichi has been too busy nowadays. They rarely got the time to just sit back and snuggle to each other while watching the silly movie like they always did before. He missed that moment.
“Will you be late tonight.?”
Tatsuya stopped Yuichi midway when the older was about to open the door. Yuichi just chastely kissed Tatsuya on his forehead before he say.
“Don’t wait for me. I’ll be late. See you later, baby.”
And there we go, Tatsuya thought, another boring day without Yuichi. Flopping himself again on the couch, Tatsuya browsed through the channels, searching for something that may took his interest. He counts again the night that he spent alone without Yuichi by his side. And at the thought that this is the fourth time Yuichi will not be home this week, Tatsuya hugs his knees and hopes that somehow their relationship won’t end up like most of their comrades.
***“Yuichi..”
Kame approached Yuichi slowly and pats the older man so that Yuichi knew his existence there. Yuichi looks up at Kame with his teary eyes and Kame just crouched down to coo the other. Somehow the guilt he felt inside for causing this thing really torn his heart apart. All this while, he promised to protect his band mates, but all he did right now is hurting the two oldest members in KAT-TUN. How could he..?
“I’m so sorry. It’s all my fault.”
“No, Kame. I’m the one who caused this. This thing happened long before you come into the scene. I’ve been ignoring him all this while. I’m the worst right now. If only I could turn back time, how I wish I could fix this again. I just want him back.” Yuichi ruffles his black hair messily while looking down at the tile floor.
Kame towered over Yuichi with a guilty look. Till Tatsuya forgives him only will he consider himself as innocent in this. If not for him, Tatsuya won’t be like that, Yuichi won’t be as pathetic as this, and he’ll never get this feeling he felt inside.
In his whispery voice, Kame tried to approach Tatsuya although he knew the older one won’t hear him. “Tat-chan. I know you won’t hear me right now. I just want to say I’m sorry about this. There’s nothing happened between us, I swear. Yuichi just wants to comfort me as a friend. I need someone at that time, and Yuichi came right on time. I swear I never have the intention to hurt you, or ruined your relationship with Yuichi.”
Kame looks down at Yuichi who is now palming his face, and there he thought how long have their relationship been in the verge to break. They are known as the couple that everyone admired, for the juniors and the idols. From best friends, they turned their relationship to lover. Their relationship has been going steady, until now.
“Tat-chan. I’m sorry.” Kame said again, and nothing replied him.
***“Kame. Hey. Don’t cry.. I’m here..”
Tatsuya stopped dead on his track when he heard the familiar voice of his boyfriend. He peeked from a corner and saw Yuichi together with Kame. But what makes him stares at the scene wide eyed is the fact that Yuichi is hugging Kame tightly against his chest.
He tried to suppress his tears from falling down and wonders, how long it has been since Yuichi hugs him like that.
Yuichi rubs the back of Kame affectionately, and pulled the younger man away while staring right into his orbs.
“It’s okay. You still got me here. Nobody’s going to hurt you anymore, not even him. Now, stop crying.”
Using his slender fingers, Yuichi wipes away the remnant tears on Kame’s bloodshot eyes. Unbeknownst to him, someone is watching that scene with a raging jealousy burning inside. Before Yuichi could even realize, Kame suddenly leans up and kissed his cheek. That really caught Yuichi off guard although he knew Kame always showed that kind of affection in public and to everyone.
Yuichi suddenly heard a sobbing sound from the far end corner. He was surprised when he saw Tatsuya is standing right there, while holding a can of drink, and staring at him with his now teary eyes.
“Tat…Tatsuya…”
Kame pushed himself away from Yuichi while staring at Tatsuya. He hastily wipes away the remaining tears on his cheeks and tried to approach Tatsuya. But all Tatsuya did is inching away from him. As if Kame is a virus that needs to be avoided.
“You…you don’t love me…anymore..”
Tatsuya sounds so pathetic between his hiccupping sounds. The tears keep flowing freely on his porcelain cheeks, as if a trail was made for the river of tear to flow down. Yuichi vigorously shook his head in denial.
“No.! I love you, Tatsuya.. I really do. That thing just now is not like what you saw.. We’re just…”
“Liar..!”
With a yell, Tatsuya runs away from there, leaving his two dumbstruck band mates staring at him. When something clicks on his mind only did Yuichi started to run after his lover.
“Tatsuya, wait.!”
***“How long has he been in there.?”
Koki approached them and looks at the closed door there. Behind the door is Tatsuya, doing who knows what.
“Almost two hours.? Or maybe more..? I’ve lost track of times now.” Junno answered casually while playing his DS.
Sighing slightly, Koki pulled Yuichi’s collar to make the oldest man stood on his feet and confront him.
“Get this over with and let us back home already. I need my things right now and your lover is in there, with all our things, doing who knows what.! Just get him out of there.!” Koki spats right at Yuichi and points to their locked dressing room.
“I..I know…But you know him…” Yuichi tried to reason out with his band mate, and smiles slightly at Koki.
“Once I’m back, I want him out from that room.” Koki warned Yuichi before he dragged Junno towards the café again.
Sighing slightly, Yuichi looks at Kame with a hopeless look. He knocks the door again, now with a firmer knock.
“Tatsuya.. Please open the door. You heard Koki right.? How long do you wish to lock yourself in there.?” Yuichi asked with his gentle voice. But all that answered him is silent.
“Do you want to sleep here.? Then at least let me accompany you here.”
Kame just watched in silent and hopes endlessly that the door will open up. He wants to make sure that Tatsuya is fine. He then knocks the door again, hoping that Tatsuya will say something.
“Tat-chan.. I’m sure Yuichi regrets for all that he did to you all this while. Please open the door, I need to make sure that you’re fine.”
“I don’t want to.”
Yuichi palms himself in relieve once he heard a reply from his lover. Slowly, he pushed Kame away from the door and there’s a ruffling sound he heard from the other side of the door. Maybe Tatsuya is leaning against it.
“Tatsuya..? Could you please open this door.? I want to make sure that you’re not crying because of me.” Yuichi whispers so that the only one who could hear it is his beloved boyfriend.
“You’ve already made me cried.!”
Yuichi cringed away from the door once Tatsuya yelled at him. Seeing that scene, Kame giggled like a toddler. At least, Tatsuya is willing enough to talk to Yuichi.
“I know.. I know… I’m so sorry, Tatsuya. What you saw earlier is not like what you thought. Kame really needs a friend, and I just lend him a hand as a friend, not more than that. I only love you alone, Tatsuya. I really, really, really love you that I was afraid that I might lose you just now.”
Kame leans closer to the door and smiles encouragingly at Yuichi. “Tat-chan.. Did you know that Yuichi cried just now.? He really looks like a lost man just now, when you won’t talk to him, and you refused to open the door for him. I never saw him like this before you know. I think he really thinks that you might leave him, and that really made him feel lost.”
Tatsuya never replied Kame, but they could hear a sobbing sound behind the door. Tatsuya is crying again, for who knows how many times already that day.
“Tatsuya… Please don’t cry.. Don’t make me feel guiltier over this thing. I will do anything, Tatsuya.. Anything for you to open this door. I just want to hug you, and tell you that I love you…”
“I don’t want to…”
“Then do you wish to sleep here.?” Yuichi asked Tatsuya again.
And there’s silent again, prompting that Tatsuya won’t talk to Yuichi anymore. All this while, Tatsuya and Yuichi never have any difficulties in their relationship. So, some might say that this is the worst conflict in Maruda’s relationship. Yuichi scratched the back of his neck, and then something clicks on his mind. Something that maybe could make this door open.
“Tatsuya… You always said that you won’t be able to sleep without my voice singing a lullaby for you. If you open this door, I’ll sing for you, so that you’ll have a great night sleep. I know you’re so tired today, right.?”
*silence*
Kame pats Yuichi again as the older man slumps his shoulder in dejected. Tatsuya won’t talk to him anymore, and maybe it’ll be hard for him to approach his lover on any other day.
Not long after that, a cracking sound of the door surprised both Yuichi and Kame. They look expectantly at the slightly opened door and when they saw Tatsuya’s head perked up there, Yuichi is the first one who heaves out a relief sigh.
“Thank God, Tat-chan..”
Kame was about to push the door open, but Tatsuya closed it again.
“I just want Yuichi…”
Tatsuya’s childish whining is the only voice that replied Kame. Kame looks at Yuichi with his almost surprised face and asked for the older man to get this over with as soon as possible before he moves away from the door.
Slowly, Yuichi steps into their dressing room and found Tatsuya leaning against the wall beside the door. Seeing how sore and red Tatsuya’s eyes were, Yuichi pulled the younger one for a hug. There’s a relief smile on his face once he knew that Tatsuya is inside his arms, safe and sound.
“God, Tatsuya.. Don’t you ever do that to me again. You don’t know how worried I am just now.”
Tatsuya hits Yuichi’s chest again and again, hoping that it’ll make him feel better. His tears started to flow again, but he’s sure now it’s because of happiness for being inside his lover’s arms.
“I’m the one who’s supposed to say that, baka.!” Tatsuya said against Yuichi’s chest, his voice being muffled by his own sobbing sound.
“I love you. I really love you… I’m sorry for ignoring you all this time, for ditching you at nights just for works. I promised I won’t do that again. At least I’ll try.”
Tatsuya pulled away from Yuichi and stares at Yuichi with his teary wide brown orbs. “Promise.?”
Wiping the remnant tears on his lover’s eyes, Yuichi kissed Tatsuya lovingly on his lips, engaging his words by the simple yet sweet kiss.
“I’ll hold onto my words for you, Tatsuya.”
A smile started to creep on Tatsuya’s face, showing that he’s starting to forgive Yuichi. He pulled the older man towards the couch and rests his head on Yuichi’s laps. The gesture only made Yuichi felt his heart beating wildly against his chest. He combs Tatsuya’s copper hair lovingly while locking their eyes together.
“You want to sleep.?”
“Un..” Tatsuya replied with a firm nod.
Yuichi leans down to kiss his lover’s forehead, and Tatsuya just closed his eyes in pure bliss.
“Come on. I’ll sing for you..”
ameagari asa no yasashii madoromi
nichiyo o tsugeru rajio no nyusu
futatsu naran deru kohi nagame
kimi no nukumori kanjite ita
"gomen ne" to kino no namida o nuguu yo ni karada yose au
zutto onaji hibi ga tsuzukimasu yo ni
futari no jikan o kasanete yukou
kimi to egaku mirai tashika janakute mo
mune o atatame teru "aishiteru"
Yuichi stopped his singing when he saw that Tatsuya is sleeping peacefully on his lap. There’s a small smile created while he’s asleep. Yuichi stroked Tatsuya’s cheek lovingly, hoping for a better bond between them after this incident.
“Oi, Bakamaru.! I told you to get your boyfriend out from there, not you going in there and make out with him.!”
A sudden knock with a yell from Koki surprised Yuichi out from his thought. He looks down at the sleeping face of his Tatsuya, and there’s a pure relief he felt for having a chance to love this angel again.
“Shut up.! My angel is sleeping.!”
A/N : and there goes my attempted angst fic... I failed.. =__=" guess I'll stick with the fluffy genre instead.... a
anyway, comments are always bribed with Maruda's love...! ^___^
Pairings : Maruda, slight Nakame
Ratings : PG-13
Warnings : Slightly angst, and as always, unbeta-ed... ^__^"
Summary : Yuichi made a mistake, and now he must pay to get his Tatsuya back...
A/N : for my lovely sis, kat_tundaisuki.... attempted angst; fail.. =__="
“I’m sorry, Tatsuya…”
Yuichi bangs his head continuously on the door, wishing that somehow it’ll make the younger man forgive him. But of course it’s useless. Tatsuya can’t see him. Yuichi just hopes that Tatsuya will at least hear him.
“I really regret this, Tatsuya.. Please, don’t do this to me..”
Hearing no response, Yuichi decides to make the easy approach. He smiles slightly before he whispers not so loudly, but visible for the younger one to hear. He hopes so.
“Tatsuya… do you still remember the day that I confessed to you..? Or rather, you confessed to me.?”
***“Tat-chan.!Wait.!”
Tatsuya spun around when he heard Kame’s voice yelling out for him. They just finished filming the Shounen Club for that night and Tatsuya decided that he badly wants his comfy bed right now. Although they haven’t debuted yet, KAT-TUN is far much busier than any other debuted Johnny’s group.
With a bag slinging on his shoulder, Tatsuya waits patiently for his youngest friend to approach. But what surprised him more is seeing Yuichi together with Kame, and did he saw a tint of blush on the oldest cheeks.?
“What is it.?” Tatsuya asked rather sleepily. He really got no time if they called him just to invite him out for a dinner.
“Well.. Go Maru.! Good luck.!”
With just that, Kame dashed out from the scene, leaving Yuichi and Tatsuya alone. Tatsuya was left dumbstruck at Kame’s antic and decided to stare at his best friend instead. He saw how Yuichi is fidgeting on his spot while rubbing his palms together.
“Well.? Do you have something to talk to me.? Since Kame leaves you here.”
Yuichi stares back at those mesmerizing orbs, and decided that he made a big mistake. Blush started to creep on his cheeks, showing how flustered he is with this situation. But when he remembered how long he has been bottled up this feeling, he rather spilled it out now. Heaving in a big breath, Yuichi towered over the petite Tatsuya with a determined face.
“I….I…lo…love….” Tatsuya quirks his brow when Yuichi keep stuttering on his words. That’s something new.
Seeing the adorable Tatsuya in front of him, Yuichi was sure he has blacked out already. So, instead, he’s saying one random thing. “I…love your black hair…”
“Huh.?” Tatsuya almost fall down when he heard that. He then played with his silky black hair while looking at Yuichi. “Well….Thanks..”
Tatsuya has this pang feeling inside, but he rather keep it for his own. Yuichi just smiles awkwardly at that.
“Maybe I should change it.” Tatsuya said out of nowhere, completely caught Yuichi off guard.
“Ehh..?? Why.?? I loved it.! Seriously.”
Tatsuya stares back at Yuichi with his sorrow eyes. Yuichi was sure his heart has stopped beating at that very moment.
“Because my hair is the only one that you love. I want you to love me, not the hair…” Tatsuya said in a whispery tone, but visible for Yuichi to hear.
Seeing how cute and adorable Tatsuya is, Yuichi suddenly hugs the younger man. Tatsuya almost falls off from his spot if not for Yuichi’s arms that hug him. He smells the strong yet sweet smell emitted from his best friend a.k.a crush, and he loves it.
“You want me to do that..?” Yuichi asked while still hugging Tatsuya. Tatsuya just did nothing and nods his head slightly.
Yuichi pulls away from the hug and cups both of Tatsuya’s cheeks. Before the younger one could say more, Yuichi leans down for a chaste kiss. A short kiss that showed how much he loves this black haired man.
Once they break the kiss, Tatsuya trails his lips and stares at Yuichi wide eyed. Did his crush just kissed him.? “Yuichi..? What..why..”
“I love you. I’m sorry that I’m late, but I love you.!”
***Yuichi giggled at his own story, and he didn’t know why a tear trickle down his cheek at that time. He made the biggest mistake today that hurt his love one’s feeling. And now he must pay for it.
“That day is the happiest day for my life. I never thought that you’ll love me back.” Yuichi paused and playing with his slender fingers animatedly. “I never thought that an angel will love me back. It’s a miracle, Tatsuya.”
“For me, you’re my angel. You’re the miracle that completes my life. I’m so stupid for doing that to you. I’m so stupid.!”
“Tatsuya…won’t you talk to me..? I look like a moron talking to nobody here.” Yuichi tried again, his heart filled with hope that the voice he’s been longing to will talk back and answered him.
“I….I really need another chance, Tatsuya.. And I promised that I won’t hurt you again if you give me that chance… I promised you..”
***“Yuichi.. Where are you going.?”
Tatsuya sit casually on the couch while his eyes followed wherever Yuichi moves. Yuichi just ignores his lover and proceeds to put on his jacket while checking out his phone. He looks like he’s in a hurry to leave their apartment. Tatsuya sighs slightly seeing his lover’s antic and walks to Yuichi slowly.
“Where are you going, silly.? You aren’t answering me.” Tatsuya hugs Yuichi from behind and snuggles into the other’s crook of neck. While he only wearing a boxer with an oversized shirt, Yuichi looks like he’s about going to a date. And he put on Tatsuya’s favorite perfume. Tatsuya fumed slightly in anger, nobody should smell that from his lover.
“Tatsuya.. I’m in a hurry.. I’ve got a meeting for the new show. And I have a drama shoot today.” Yuichi said in a hurry, his hands untangled the hug Tatsuya got around him.
Tatsuya sighs again and followed like an obedient puppy behind his lover. Yuichi has been too busy nowadays. They rarely got the time to just sit back and snuggle to each other while watching the silly movie like they always did before. He missed that moment.
“Will you be late tonight.?”
Tatsuya stopped Yuichi midway when the older was about to open the door. Yuichi just chastely kissed Tatsuya on his forehead before he say.
“Don’t wait for me. I’ll be late. See you later, baby.”
And there we go, Tatsuya thought, another boring day without Yuichi. Flopping himself again on the couch, Tatsuya browsed through the channels, searching for something that may took his interest. He counts again the night that he spent alone without Yuichi by his side. And at the thought that this is the fourth time Yuichi will not be home this week, Tatsuya hugs his knees and hopes that somehow their relationship won’t end up like most of their comrades.
***“Yuichi..”
Kame approached Yuichi slowly and pats the older man so that Yuichi knew his existence there. Yuichi looks up at Kame with his teary eyes and Kame just crouched down to coo the other. Somehow the guilt he felt inside for causing this thing really torn his heart apart. All this while, he promised to protect his band mates, but all he did right now is hurting the two oldest members in KAT-TUN. How could he..?
“I’m so sorry. It’s all my fault.”
“No, Kame. I’m the one who caused this. This thing happened long before you come into the scene. I’ve been ignoring him all this while. I’m the worst right now. If only I could turn back time, how I wish I could fix this again. I just want him back.” Yuichi ruffles his black hair messily while looking down at the tile floor.
Kame towered over Yuichi with a guilty look. Till Tatsuya forgives him only will he consider himself as innocent in this. If not for him, Tatsuya won’t be like that, Yuichi won’t be as pathetic as this, and he’ll never get this feeling he felt inside.
In his whispery voice, Kame tried to approach Tatsuya although he knew the older one won’t hear him. “Tat-chan. I know you won’t hear me right now. I just want to say I’m sorry about this. There’s nothing happened between us, I swear. Yuichi just wants to comfort me as a friend. I need someone at that time, and Yuichi came right on time. I swear I never have the intention to hurt you, or ruined your relationship with Yuichi.”
Kame looks down at Yuichi who is now palming his face, and there he thought how long have their relationship been in the verge to break. They are known as the couple that everyone admired, for the juniors and the idols. From best friends, they turned their relationship to lover. Their relationship has been going steady, until now.
“Tat-chan. I’m sorry.” Kame said again, and nothing replied him.
***“Kame. Hey. Don’t cry.. I’m here..”
Tatsuya stopped dead on his track when he heard the familiar voice of his boyfriend. He peeked from a corner and saw Yuichi together with Kame. But what makes him stares at the scene wide eyed is the fact that Yuichi is hugging Kame tightly against his chest.
He tried to suppress his tears from falling down and wonders, how long it has been since Yuichi hugs him like that.
Yuichi rubs the back of Kame affectionately, and pulled the younger man away while staring right into his orbs.
“It’s okay. You still got me here. Nobody’s going to hurt you anymore, not even him. Now, stop crying.”
Using his slender fingers, Yuichi wipes away the remnant tears on Kame’s bloodshot eyes. Unbeknownst to him, someone is watching that scene with a raging jealousy burning inside. Before Yuichi could even realize, Kame suddenly leans up and kissed his cheek. That really caught Yuichi off guard although he knew Kame always showed that kind of affection in public and to everyone.
Yuichi suddenly heard a sobbing sound from the far end corner. He was surprised when he saw Tatsuya is standing right there, while holding a can of drink, and staring at him with his now teary eyes.
“Tat…Tatsuya…”
Kame pushed himself away from Yuichi while staring at Tatsuya. He hastily wipes away the remaining tears on his cheeks and tried to approach Tatsuya. But all Tatsuya did is inching away from him. As if Kame is a virus that needs to be avoided.
“You…you don’t love me…anymore..”
Tatsuya sounds so pathetic between his hiccupping sounds. The tears keep flowing freely on his porcelain cheeks, as if a trail was made for the river of tear to flow down. Yuichi vigorously shook his head in denial.
“No.! I love you, Tatsuya.. I really do. That thing just now is not like what you saw.. We’re just…”
“Liar..!”
With a yell, Tatsuya runs away from there, leaving his two dumbstruck band mates staring at him. When something clicks on his mind only did Yuichi started to run after his lover.
“Tatsuya, wait.!”
***“How long has he been in there.?”
Koki approached them and looks at the closed door there. Behind the door is Tatsuya, doing who knows what.
“Almost two hours.? Or maybe more..? I’ve lost track of times now.” Junno answered casually while playing his DS.
Sighing slightly, Koki pulled Yuichi’s collar to make the oldest man stood on his feet and confront him.
“Get this over with and let us back home already. I need my things right now and your lover is in there, with all our things, doing who knows what.! Just get him out of there.!” Koki spats right at Yuichi and points to their locked dressing room.
“I..I know…But you know him…” Yuichi tried to reason out with his band mate, and smiles slightly at Koki.
“Once I’m back, I want him out from that room.” Koki warned Yuichi before he dragged Junno towards the café again.
Sighing slightly, Yuichi looks at Kame with a hopeless look. He knocks the door again, now with a firmer knock.
“Tatsuya.. Please open the door. You heard Koki right.? How long do you wish to lock yourself in there.?” Yuichi asked with his gentle voice. But all that answered him is silent.
“Do you want to sleep here.? Then at least let me accompany you here.”
Kame just watched in silent and hopes endlessly that the door will open up. He wants to make sure that Tatsuya is fine. He then knocks the door again, hoping that Tatsuya will say something.
“Tat-chan.. I’m sure Yuichi regrets for all that he did to you all this while. Please open the door, I need to make sure that you’re fine.”
“I don’t want to.”
Yuichi palms himself in relieve once he heard a reply from his lover. Slowly, he pushed Kame away from the door and there’s a ruffling sound he heard from the other side of the door. Maybe Tatsuya is leaning against it.
“Tatsuya..? Could you please open this door.? I want to make sure that you’re not crying because of me.” Yuichi whispers so that the only one who could hear it is his beloved boyfriend.
“You’ve already made me cried.!”
Yuichi cringed away from the door once Tatsuya yelled at him. Seeing that scene, Kame giggled like a toddler. At least, Tatsuya is willing enough to talk to Yuichi.
“I know.. I know… I’m so sorry, Tatsuya. What you saw earlier is not like what you thought. Kame really needs a friend, and I just lend him a hand as a friend, not more than that. I only love you alone, Tatsuya. I really, really, really love you that I was afraid that I might lose you just now.”
Kame leans closer to the door and smiles encouragingly at Yuichi. “Tat-chan.. Did you know that Yuichi cried just now.? He really looks like a lost man just now, when you won’t talk to him, and you refused to open the door for him. I never saw him like this before you know. I think he really thinks that you might leave him, and that really made him feel lost.”
Tatsuya never replied Kame, but they could hear a sobbing sound behind the door. Tatsuya is crying again, for who knows how many times already that day.
“Tatsuya… Please don’t cry.. Don’t make me feel guiltier over this thing. I will do anything, Tatsuya.. Anything for you to open this door. I just want to hug you, and tell you that I love you…”
“I don’t want to…”
“Then do you wish to sleep here.?” Yuichi asked Tatsuya again.
And there’s silent again, prompting that Tatsuya won’t talk to Yuichi anymore. All this while, Tatsuya and Yuichi never have any difficulties in their relationship. So, some might say that this is the worst conflict in Maruda’s relationship. Yuichi scratched the back of his neck, and then something clicks on his mind. Something that maybe could make this door open.
“Tatsuya… You always said that you won’t be able to sleep without my voice singing a lullaby for you. If you open this door, I’ll sing for you, so that you’ll have a great night sleep. I know you’re so tired today, right.?”
*silence*
Kame pats Yuichi again as the older man slumps his shoulder in dejected. Tatsuya won’t talk to him anymore, and maybe it’ll be hard for him to approach his lover on any other day.
Not long after that, a cracking sound of the door surprised both Yuichi and Kame. They look expectantly at the slightly opened door and when they saw Tatsuya’s head perked up there, Yuichi is the first one who heaves out a relief sigh.
“Thank God, Tat-chan..”
Kame was about to push the door open, but Tatsuya closed it again.
“I just want Yuichi…”
Tatsuya’s childish whining is the only voice that replied Kame. Kame looks at Yuichi with his almost surprised face and asked for the older man to get this over with as soon as possible before he moves away from the door.
Slowly, Yuichi steps into their dressing room and found Tatsuya leaning against the wall beside the door. Seeing how sore and red Tatsuya’s eyes were, Yuichi pulled the younger one for a hug. There’s a relief smile on his face once he knew that Tatsuya is inside his arms, safe and sound.
“God, Tatsuya.. Don’t you ever do that to me again. You don’t know how worried I am just now.”
Tatsuya hits Yuichi’s chest again and again, hoping that it’ll make him feel better. His tears started to flow again, but he’s sure now it’s because of happiness for being inside his lover’s arms.
“I’m the one who’s supposed to say that, baka.!” Tatsuya said against Yuichi’s chest, his voice being muffled by his own sobbing sound.
“I love you. I really love you… I’m sorry for ignoring you all this time, for ditching you at nights just for works. I promised I won’t do that again. At least I’ll try.”
Tatsuya pulled away from Yuichi and stares at Yuichi with his teary wide brown orbs. “Promise.?”
Wiping the remnant tears on his lover’s eyes, Yuichi kissed Tatsuya lovingly on his lips, engaging his words by the simple yet sweet kiss.
“I’ll hold onto my words for you, Tatsuya.”
A smile started to creep on Tatsuya’s face, showing that he’s starting to forgive Yuichi. He pulled the older man towards the couch and rests his head on Yuichi’s laps. The gesture only made Yuichi felt his heart beating wildly against his chest. He combs Tatsuya’s copper hair lovingly while locking their eyes together.
“You want to sleep.?”
“Un..” Tatsuya replied with a firm nod.
Yuichi leans down to kiss his lover’s forehead, and Tatsuya just closed his eyes in pure bliss.
“Come on. I’ll sing for you..”
ameagari asa no yasashii madoromi
nichiyo o tsugeru rajio no nyusu
futatsu naran deru kohi nagame
kimi no nukumori kanjite ita
"gomen ne" to kino no namida o nuguu yo ni karada yose au
zutto onaji hibi ga tsuzukimasu yo ni
futari no jikan o kasanete yukou
kimi to egaku mirai tashika janakute mo
mune o atatame teru "aishiteru"
Yuichi stopped his singing when he saw that Tatsuya is sleeping peacefully on his lap. There’s a small smile created while he’s asleep. Yuichi stroked Tatsuya’s cheek lovingly, hoping for a better bond between them after this incident.
“Oi, Bakamaru.! I told you to get your boyfriend out from there, not you going in there and make out with him.!”
A sudden knock with a yell from Koki surprised Yuichi out from his thought. He looks down at the sleeping face of his Tatsuya, and there’s a pure relief he felt for having a chance to love this angel again.
“Shut up.! My angel is sleeping.!”
A/N : and there goes my attempted angst fic... I failed.. =__=" guess I'll stick with the fluffy genre instead.... a
anyway, comments are always bribed with Maruda's love...! ^___^