The party went well. Some people that I wanted to see didn't show. Some of the people that came I wish didn't. But I was too fucked up to care really. Drama unfolded like usual. Memories were born as experiences were had ( Read more... )

Tara has been pursuing me just short of relentlessly. Trying to show me just how much she's grown up in various creative ways. I saw her when I came home this weekend and we had a lot of fun. When I got back to JWU, we had a long conversation about our past and our future. Well, she's in mine. As my girlfriend. I gave in although I told her I ( Read more... )

Tara asked me out.

There's this ag/stud that sells mixtapes outside of Xavier Complex where we have our business classes. She reminds me a lot of Michelle in that they are both black and have cornrows and dress in that ghetto thug way. The only difference that I can tell so far is that the mixtape chick is a lot more open and outgoing then Michelle. Michelle is ( Read more... )

While Taina was on spring break, she bumped into Yoleidi at the movies. Yoleidi asked how I was doing and Taina told her she should give me a call and ask me herself. Good thinking Taina and good job too because she did. Pretty good timing if you ask me ( Read more... )

I might go up to Albany to stay at Tara's dorm. She has a spare room so I wouldn't have to get too comfy with her. It might be good to getaway....maybe I'll find something of substance. Find something briefly amusing, a few good conversations, a break in my routine ( Read more... )

I've decided to start completely from scratch. Find completely new people to date. I've always been the kind of chick who has a main person and a few backup options. Sometimes, even backups for the backup options. But I'm sick of running around in circles and creating and re-creating situations and relations. Some might say I do this because I ( Read more... )

Went to Ed's and left but an hour later. Because he can not just watch a movie, there was some kissing involved. That's when I told him I had to leave. It just wasn't right. There was no feeling behind it, on my part anyways, and so therefore, it was pointless. If anything it reminded me just how much I love women ( Read more... )

Eddie called me today. Twice in a 15 minute period. I was such a spaz. He's gonna call lata tonight and we might chill before I leave. He may be an asshole but he's interesting as fuck. I miss what he does for me mentally ( Read more... )

Personally, happiness=completion. I've experienced this twice. Currently, I feel like a part of me is missing. This equals sadness. I've been searching for something or someone to fill that void. Though nothing I've come across fits that position. Perhaps, there is no true distraction this time. I may just have to deal with the issue and ( Read more... )