Finally!

[deamon_frost]

This is exactly why I insist on being alone on Christmas. I can actually do the things I want to do, and I have a whole day to do them. I've been trying to get to my website for months, and finally put up 6 new galleries in the Photos section. Also, I get to update my LJ. I never have anything to write, so it's not like you are missing much. I

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[digitalpoetry]

You finally updated your LJ...I hadn't expected you to ever get back to it.

Just a comment about the last paragraph: The only reason I'm not 100% OK with you seeing her again is that I'm protective of my "siblings" (probably more so than if you were my actual sibling, since we got to skip the crappy part of being brothers) and I hate to see them get hurt. I respect your reasons for being in the relationship, and I do hope things work out - I just have a hard time forgiving her for hurting you like that.

[deamon_frost]

Hey, you have one too! Anyway, like I said, I can respect it. When you are not in the middle of it, your mind won't change to quick. But, since I have gone through the why and how, and seen myself as apart of it, I guess it is easier for me. I mean, believe me, the pain of it all crosses me every day, and old memories still sting pretty bad, but it seems nothing worth having is easy. Most people give up and never look back. I'm just curious to see what happens if I do go back. Is forgiveness divine? Does damage like this make for a stronger bond later? Who knows...maybe I will eventually. It's hard to trust her...it's hard to keep that forgiveness at all times...but maybe it's something everyone could use a little more of. Maybe knowing what it is like to be without someone helps you keep them with a stronger bond. Truth be told, I would just hate to be wrong about this in the end.

~Frost

P.S. - On lighter note, did you see my new galleries?

[digitalpoetry]

I did, they're looking nice. You're great with a camera...I'd like to be able to put more time into photography myself, I have too many other hobbies that end up getting in the way.

I can totally relate to your reasons for giving it another try. Some things are worth giving everything you have to give. I really do hope it works out, and I hope that I can forgive her someday. I don't like holding grudges, but I usually need a reason to let it go. There's still only one person that I actively hate...