Forbidden Love Chapter 12
Title: Forbidden Love
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and I hope it's okay with the story in this chapter
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
Takaki turned to her and looked back to the road in front of him. He sighed but didn’t say anything.
“I’m really fine now. There’s no need to worry that much.”
“Of course I’m worried. There’s no one around you when you’re sick.”
Takaki snorted. “There is. Yuki took care of me when she had time.”
“But there’s no one around when I came to visit.”
Takaki smiled again. “Who told you that I was sick?”
“No one. I just had a feeling that I have to see you. I don’t know why, or how, but so far I remember I already stood in front of your door.”
Takaki chuckled. “Your instinct is scary.”
“This is what people called love. I love you. So much until I can feel it when you’re sick.”
“But you don’t realize it until you came to my place.”
Shinkawa smiled sheepishly. “That’s ... “
Takaki laughed lightly.
“Ah! How’s Yamada?”
Takaki suddenly shut his mouth. He bit his lower lips tightly.
“What is it? something happened?”
“No. It’s just, I didn’t see him in today’s rehearsal.”
“What the others say?”
“Nothing. They didn’t say anything.” Takaki pushed the brake when he saw the red light in the front. He tapped the steer continuously. “I don’t know. I feel something isn’t right. The way the others looked at me today. I feel like, they are judging me for something.”
Shinkawa looked at Takaki in silent.
Are they starting to realize it? About their relationship?
“Do you think they knew it?”
Shinkawa smiled. He stared at the nervous Takaki and suddenly feeling she had to say something to calm him.
“Even if they knew it, they won’t do anything. They will just let it slide and I’m sure they’re happy too.”
“I’m not sure they will let it slide just like that. They will dig until we can’t hide anymore. And the worse, they will run away from us. It’s okay for me, but I feel bad for Ryosuke. JUMP is the most important thing for him now. I can’t imagine what will happen to him if we brake up.”
“JUMP will be fine. It will be totally just fine. It’s been eleven years, you stayed there for each other, you stood to each other for whatever happened. I believe they will stand for you too now, no matter what happened. They will support whatever way you choose. You chose, Yamada had chosen the same way too. They will be there for you.”
“It’s different. Ryu’s case was normal case. Even Keito’s case is normal too. But us? We’re not normal.”
“Normal or not, love is love. People can’t do anything about it. People can’t judge others based on it. It is love.”
Takaki smiled and shook his head.
“You love Yamada. Too much until you never give me any chance to show my love for you.”
Takaki suddenly gritted his teeth hard but still didn’t say anything.
“You don’t give me any room in your heart to stay even just for a while.”
“I’m sorry.”
Shinkawa smiled and patted Takaki’s arm.
“I’m fine though. I will still love you with all my heart even you don’t love me back.” Shinkawa turned to the road too and sighed. “Yamada is very blessed to receive such a big love. He should be the happiest person in the world.”
“But we are against the rule. We are crossing the line.”
“So what? You love him and he loves you. That’s it. Never mind what others will say. They’re just jealous over your love. Because they don’t have the person they love that much. Because they don’t have the person who loves them that much. They’re just jealous.”
“We shouldn’t be together.”
“Yes, you should. You love each other. You should be together.”
Takaki turned to the girl and got the reassuring look from her. He sighed heavily and shook his head.
“It is very easy to talk.”
“It is very easy to do it too. Don’t mind what others will say. There will be no end if you always hear what people say about you. Just live your own life. Never mind them.”
Takaki smiled weakly and shook his head once again.
“Are we too bold?”
Shinkawa looked at him but said nothing.
“Am I too bold until you can see me thoroughly?”
Shinkawa still couldn’t get what Takaki tried to ask so she didn’t say anything.
“I never tell you anything but you found out about me and Yamada.”
Shinkawa smiled and she turned to Takaki. She touched his arm. “You don’t know anything about women, aren’t you?”
Takaki looked at her in silent.
“We have our instinct. This cannot be explained with words. I just knew it. You don’t have to tell me that you love Yamada, but I knew it. You only told me once about him, but the way you called his name’s different. There’s love in it. How do I know, don’t ask me that. I just know.”
Takaki shook his head once again. “You’re scary, really.”
Shinkawa grinned widely. “Oh! Don’t be scared of me because I still want to stay beside you.”
Takaki snorted but said nothing.
The light turned green and they drove away.
Out of their sight, three pairs of eyes stared at them in silent from the other direction.
“Is that Takaki?”
“It is Takaki’s car, and I’m really sure he is the one who’s driving it.”
“Who is the one in the passenger seat?”
“Shinkawa Yua.”
They said nothing more. No one looked at each other. They just kept silent in their place. Hikaru tapped the steer in a steady rhythm, Yabu just looked out side the window, and Inoo did nothing on the back seat. He just looked at the way Takaki went away.
“Many times ago there’s a rumor about Yamada and Satoko,” Yabu took a glance to his friends, “and then we found out about Takaki and Yamada. Now we just saw Takaki and Shinkawa. Which one is the true couple?”
Inoo sighed and once again looked out the way Takaki went away.
“And what happened to Yamada until he closed himself from everything?”
Inoo sighed again. “It is still clear in my mind the way they cried and I believe it’s true. They didn’t play us a trick.”
“The concert cancelled, and thanks the management that found another reason to do it.” Yabu almost mumbled the words but loud enough to the others to hear. “But we can’t stay like this forever.”
Something flashed in his mind, and Hikaru turned to the back seat. “This is the scenario. You love Takaki, too much until you can’t think anything straightly. Then one day, you see him with a girl. You suddenly realize that you have zero chance to get him to be yours, because reality will choose the girl over you to be his couple. Question, what will happen to you?”
Inoo didn’t even blink for a while. He just looked at Hikaru but said nothing. He suddenly could see everything clearly.
“If me, I will go crazy.” Yabu was the one who responded. “Do you think Yamada saw them?”
“That’s the only possibility we can think.”
Hikaru turned back to the front. His mind rolled so fast until he felt nauseous for a moment. He breathed heavily many times to reduce the nausea. He bit his lower lip and scratched his head weakly.
“It must be happened between the time he ran away when he heard Takaki wasn’t coming to rehearsal that day, until we visit Takaki to find that Yuki was there.”
“Do you think he saw Shinkawa in Takaki’s appartment?”
“That’s the only possibility I can think. You know, unfortunately Takaki and Shinkawa look good together. If I’m in Yamada’s position, I will suddenly feel insecure. Who am I? A man. Only a man. Society won’t accept me even I try to fight to get his love. Society will force me to surrender my feeling and give the girl a chance to love Takaki.”
Inoo didn’t say anything along the conversation. He just kept silent in the back seat and tried to analyze everything. He closed his eyes and could feel the twisted feeling Takaki had felt.
He loves Yamada. I’m sure he loves him so much. His tears told me everything. His silent told me everything. He just confused with the future of their relationship. He doesn’t want everybody to suffer. If people found out about their relationship, JUMP will get the worst result. And the worst result we will get is the management will force us to brake.
He just doesn’t want that to happen.
He wants everybody to be happy.
“Inoo-Chan?”
Inoo opened his eyes so sudden. He looked at his friends who looked at him in worry.
“Are you okay?”
Inoo blinked his eyes many times. He nodded many times to assure his friends that he’s okay.
“Yes, I’m fine. I’m just thinking. I’m fine.”
“You’re thinking about Takaki.”
Inoo looked at Hikaru and nodded weakly.
“Yes. And I still believe in him. He loves Yamada and there’s no way he will cheat on him.”
Hikaru and Yabu looked at each other but said nothing.
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and I hope it's okay with the story in this chapter
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
Takaki turned to her and looked back to the road in front of him. He sighed but didn’t say anything.
“I’m really fine now. There’s no need to worry that much.”
“Of course I’m worried. There’s no one around you when you’re sick.”
Takaki snorted. “There is. Yuki took care of me when she had time.”
“But there’s no one around when I came to visit.”
Takaki smiled again. “Who told you that I was sick?”
“No one. I just had a feeling that I have to see you. I don’t know why, or how, but so far I remember I already stood in front of your door.”
Takaki chuckled. “Your instinct is scary.”
“This is what people called love. I love you. So much until I can feel it when you’re sick.”
“But you don’t realize it until you came to my place.”
Shinkawa smiled sheepishly. “That’s ... “
Takaki laughed lightly.
“Ah! How’s Yamada?”
Takaki suddenly shut his mouth. He bit his lower lips tightly.
“What is it? something happened?”
“No. It’s just, I didn’t see him in today’s rehearsal.”
“What the others say?”
“Nothing. They didn’t say anything.” Takaki pushed the brake when he saw the red light in the front. He tapped the steer continuously. “I don’t know. I feel something isn’t right. The way the others looked at me today. I feel like, they are judging me for something.”
Shinkawa looked at Takaki in silent.
Are they starting to realize it? About their relationship?
“Do you think they knew it?”
Shinkawa smiled. He stared at the nervous Takaki and suddenly feeling she had to say something to calm him.
“Even if they knew it, they won’t do anything. They will just let it slide and I’m sure they’re happy too.”
“I’m not sure they will let it slide just like that. They will dig until we can’t hide anymore. And the worse, they will run away from us. It’s okay for me, but I feel bad for Ryosuke. JUMP is the most important thing for him now. I can’t imagine what will happen to him if we brake up.”
“JUMP will be fine. It will be totally just fine. It’s been eleven years, you stayed there for each other, you stood to each other for whatever happened. I believe they will stand for you too now, no matter what happened. They will support whatever way you choose. You chose, Yamada had chosen the same way too. They will be there for you.”
“It’s different. Ryu’s case was normal case. Even Keito’s case is normal too. But us? We’re not normal.”
“Normal or not, love is love. People can’t do anything about it. People can’t judge others based on it. It is love.”
Takaki smiled and shook his head.
“You love Yamada. Too much until you never give me any chance to show my love for you.”
Takaki suddenly gritted his teeth hard but still didn’t say anything.
“You don’t give me any room in your heart to stay even just for a while.”
“I’m sorry.”
Shinkawa smiled and patted Takaki’s arm.
“I’m fine though. I will still love you with all my heart even you don’t love me back.” Shinkawa turned to the road too and sighed. “Yamada is very blessed to receive such a big love. He should be the happiest person in the world.”
“But we are against the rule. We are crossing the line.”
“So what? You love him and he loves you. That’s it. Never mind what others will say. They’re just jealous over your love. Because they don’t have the person they love that much. Because they don’t have the person who loves them that much. They’re just jealous.”
“We shouldn’t be together.”
“Yes, you should. You love each other. You should be together.”
Takaki turned to the girl and got the reassuring look from her. He sighed heavily and shook his head.
“It is very easy to talk.”
“It is very easy to do it too. Don’t mind what others will say. There will be no end if you always hear what people say about you. Just live your own life. Never mind them.”
Takaki smiled weakly and shook his head once again.
“Are we too bold?”
Shinkawa looked at him but said nothing.
“Am I too bold until you can see me thoroughly?”
Shinkawa still couldn’t get what Takaki tried to ask so she didn’t say anything.
“I never tell you anything but you found out about me and Yamada.”
Shinkawa smiled and she turned to Takaki. She touched his arm. “You don’t know anything about women, aren’t you?”
Takaki looked at her in silent.
“We have our instinct. This cannot be explained with words. I just knew it. You don’t have to tell me that you love Yamada, but I knew it. You only told me once about him, but the way you called his name’s different. There’s love in it. How do I know, don’t ask me that. I just know.”
Takaki shook his head once again. “You’re scary, really.”
Shinkawa grinned widely. “Oh! Don’t be scared of me because I still want to stay beside you.”
Takaki snorted but said nothing.
The light turned green and they drove away.
Out of their sight, three pairs of eyes stared at them in silent from the other direction.
“Is that Takaki?”
“It is Takaki’s car, and I’m really sure he is the one who’s driving it.”
“Who is the one in the passenger seat?”
“Shinkawa Yua.”
They said nothing more. No one looked at each other. They just kept silent in their place. Hikaru tapped the steer in a steady rhythm, Yabu just looked out side the window, and Inoo did nothing on the back seat. He just looked at the way Takaki went away.
“Many times ago there’s a rumor about Yamada and Satoko,” Yabu took a glance to his friends, “and then we found out about Takaki and Yamada. Now we just saw Takaki and Shinkawa. Which one is the true couple?”
Inoo sighed and once again looked out the way Takaki went away.
“And what happened to Yamada until he closed himself from everything?”
Inoo sighed again. “It is still clear in my mind the way they cried and I believe it’s true. They didn’t play us a trick.”
“The concert cancelled, and thanks the management that found another reason to do it.” Yabu almost mumbled the words but loud enough to the others to hear. “But we can’t stay like this forever.”
Something flashed in his mind, and Hikaru turned to the back seat. “This is the scenario. You love Takaki, too much until you can’t think anything straightly. Then one day, you see him with a girl. You suddenly realize that you have zero chance to get him to be yours, because reality will choose the girl over you to be his couple. Question, what will happen to you?”
Inoo didn’t even blink for a while. He just looked at Hikaru but said nothing. He suddenly could see everything clearly.
“If me, I will go crazy.” Yabu was the one who responded. “Do you think Yamada saw them?”
“That’s the only possibility we can think.”
Hikaru turned back to the front. His mind rolled so fast until he felt nauseous for a moment. He breathed heavily many times to reduce the nausea. He bit his lower lip and scratched his head weakly.
“It must be happened between the time he ran away when he heard Takaki wasn’t coming to rehearsal that day, until we visit Takaki to find that Yuki was there.”
“Do you think he saw Shinkawa in Takaki’s appartment?”
“That’s the only possibility I can think. You know, unfortunately Takaki and Shinkawa look good together. If I’m in Yamada’s position, I will suddenly feel insecure. Who am I? A man. Only a man. Society won’t accept me even I try to fight to get his love. Society will force me to surrender my feeling and give the girl a chance to love Takaki.”
Inoo didn’t say anything along the conversation. He just kept silent in the back seat and tried to analyze everything. He closed his eyes and could feel the twisted feeling Takaki had felt.
He loves Yamada. I’m sure he loves him so much. His tears told me everything. His silent told me everything. He just confused with the future of their relationship. He doesn’t want everybody to suffer. If people found out about their relationship, JUMP will get the worst result. And the worst result we will get is the management will force us to brake.
He just doesn’t want that to happen.
He wants everybody to be happy.
“Inoo-Chan?”
Inoo opened his eyes so sudden. He looked at his friends who looked at him in worry.
“Are you okay?”
Inoo blinked his eyes many times. He nodded many times to assure his friends that he’s okay.
“Yes, I’m fine. I’m just thinking. I’m fine.”
“You’re thinking about Takaki.”
Inoo looked at Hikaru and nodded weakly.
“Yes. And I still believe in him. He loves Yamada and there’s no way he will cheat on him.”
Hikaru and Yabu looked at each other but said nothing.