Forbidden Love Chapter 15
Title: Forbidden Love
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
A soft tap made him turned and all he could find was a wide smile beamed at him.
“I’m here and you’ve been ignoring me like forever.”
Takaki gaped and smiled sheepishly. “Sorry. I’m thinking about something.”
Shinkawa shrugged and folded her legs.
“I know. You’re thinking about Yamada, right?”
Takaki turned to her and smiled. He nodded many times but didn’t say any word. He gritted his teeth hard and looked away, ignored all the hurt he read from the girl.
“Well, I saw the making last night. Your new song. It’s a great song. I like it.”
Takaki smiled widely.
“All of you sing it naturally, like it was all of your true feeling. I mean, you did it too with all of your songs, but, I don’t know. It feels different with this Lucky Unlucky. It feels deep. It feels like you want to say everything out loudly but you can’t. It feels like ..., you want to shout out about something but you can’t.”
Takaki smiled while breathed heavily.
“It feels like you want to say something more but you can’t. What is it?”
Takaki turned to the girl and could see a sincere question in her eyes. He sighed heavily and looked away. “You know what? A secret should be carried deeply inside. Once it leaks, it will change everything.”
Shinkawa stared at Takaki intently, tried hard to read something from his expression, but it was all blank. “The way you behave, the way you look over something, the way you set your point of view, it will change everything on you.”
“They found about it? Your relationship with Yamada?”
Takaki chuckled but didn’t say anything.
“They don’t go against you, do they?”
Takaki laughed more. “I don’t know, but I suddenly want to just disappear.”
Shinkawa almost gaped at the answer.
“I hurt the person I consider very important to me. I made him cry a lot lately. I don’t deserve to even exist in this world. I should disappear.”
“Wait.” Shinkawa grabbed his arms, forced him to face her. “If you disappear, Yamada will cry more. Have you ever think about it?”
“At first, yes, but it will take him no time to get up. He will recover soon.”
Shinkawa suddenly lost her words.
“He will definitely be happy if I let him go.”
Shinkawa looked away and kept quiet for a while. She lost her words to be exact and didn’t know what to say.
“He has everyone around. He will recover soon. In no time he will stand on his feet again like there’s nothing happened. He has all the comfort he needs. He will definitely be fine.”
Shinkawa looked at him in awe. Never once in her life she found a person she considered as very stupid, and now, she found one. He was the person she adored so much. Too much until she wanted to just bang his head to a wall until he got his brain back to him.
“Have you ever heard the quote that said every hurt healed but the scar stays forever?”
Takaki turned to her and nodded. “I know it, but as time passes, it will be faded. He will soon forget about me. Finding new love and live happily ever after. Everyone loves him. It will be easy for him to get up. He will definitely be fine.”
“Then what about you?”
Takaki stunned. He suddenly lost his words. He sighed heavily and looked away.
“I will just disappear.”
“Then let me disappear with you.”
Once again Takaki turned to her and found undoubtedly seriousness in her eyes.
“I won’t let you disappear alone. I will disappear with you.”
Takaki lost his words. He just looked at the girl and didn’t say anything. He gaped, and could only blink his eyes.
“If I stick myself with you, maybe one day you will let me in. I wish.”
Takaki suddenly felt a pang in his heart. He could read clearly the hurt in her eyes. The guilty feeling washed and drenched him.
No one talk and moved for a moment. They just stared at each other, talking without words, sharing all the possible way out for everything, but nothing came altogether in the end. The buzzed of a phone broke their silence and forced Shinkawa to gazed away.
“Ah, my brother’s arrived.”
Takaki blinked many times. “What? Here?”
Shinkawa smiled. “I’m different from you. You can bottle up everything inside you, but I can’t. I shared everything with my important persons.”
“What?”
“Yes. I told them too that I love you. I told them too that it’s unrequited. I told them that you had someone else. They mad at me at first, but finally understood and keep supporting me.”
Takaki gaped.
“At least I have a place when I want to cry.”
Takaki stoned and didn’t know what to say.
“Be sure to sleep right away. Don’t stay up too late. Your concert had been scheduled, and I want you to stay healthy along it.”
The girl took her bag and almost run to the front door. “Have a nice dream
Takaki looked at her until the door of the elevator closed. He stood there, in silence, and didn’t even move. His mind was blank. He didn’t know what to do, until a hand gripped his arm, and woke him from his trance.
“Yuki ...”
His sister smiled and pushed him to enter the room.
“I’m sleeping here tonight, and no, I’m sorry. I don’t receive any rejection with any reason.”
Yuki went to the fridge and served herself with a bottle of water. She stopped for a while while looking at Takaki and sighed.
“I saw her.”
Takaki sat on the couch but didn’t dare to look at his sister.
“What are you doing?”
“I didn’t invite her. She came on her own will.”
She walked over and stood in front of Takaki who looked away. He tried hard not to look at her sister. He knew he was wrong.
A light slap landed on his cheek. Takaki turned to her and threw a silent question about her act.
Yuki sighed heavily. She sat down beside him and looked at him gently. “You hurt everyone.”
Takaki turned away.
“Yua loves you. You knew it from the very beginning. It’s been years and she still loves you, and you use her to keep Yamada away from you. You hurt them. Both Yua and Yamada.”
Takaki could feel his heart stopped beating.
Yuki smiled widely looking at her brother. She pointed at his cheek. “I knew you since forever. I helped Mom to baby you when she was away, so if you think I knew nothing about you, you’re very wrong.”
Takaki gulped. He still didn’t dare to looked at his sister.
“Come on.” Yuki reached for Takaki’s cheek and forced him to face her. “I’m an open minded person. Very open minded. I don’t mind you swing that way. You chose. Then do everything to be responsible for what you have chosen.”
Takaki looked away. “We’re crossing the line.”
“Yes, you are crossing the line, but as long as no one hurt, who cares?”
Takaki breathed heavily. He leaned to the backside of the couch. “It’s easy to talk.”
“It is as easy as talking. You love him, he loves you, that’s enough. Don’t mind what other say. Hello, we are living in millennium era, you know. An era where everybody can choose their own lifestyle. Who cares what people thinks. As long as you hurt no one, just keep going.”
Takaki pulled his hair and gripped them. He wanted to shout out loudly but no word came out of his mouth.
“You think if Yamada knows that you are having relationship with Yua, he will back off? He loves you, too much until he ignores all of the fame he can get if he has a relationship with a girl out there, or even if he marries a girl somewhere. He loves you too much. You do know that.”
Takaki closed his eyes. He could see Yamada was crying in his mind.
“Do you know what people say about Yamada recently?”
Takaki turned fast to Yuki, signed that he didn’t know anything.
Yuki sighed heavily. She reached for her phone and fidgeting it for a while before showed it to Takaki.
“I ... don’t understand.”
“It says, Yamada had a mental breakdown this early year.”
Takaki widened his eyes. He took the phone from his sister and stared at the phone intently.
“The answer is no, if you asked about the articles. I’ve tried to find out on all possible sites but found nothing. So I guess there’s a leak from inside but the journalist couldn’t find any proof so they couldn’t write anything.”
Suddenly the picture of silent Yamada played around in his mind. The way he talked to him lately was different. His absent days became reasonable for him now.
So he was sick those days. He was very sick until he couldn’t manage to even talk to anyone. Mental breakdown. So it means he is very sick, and it’s all about me. All because of me. He must be cried a lot.
Oh my God.
What did I do?
I hurt him.
A lot until he can’t handle it.
Once again, Yuki reached his cheek and forced him to face her. “Fight! I’m behind you.”
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
A soft tap made him turned and all he could find was a wide smile beamed at him.
“I’m here and you’ve been ignoring me like forever.”
Takaki gaped and smiled sheepishly. “Sorry. I’m thinking about something.”
Shinkawa shrugged and folded her legs.
“I know. You’re thinking about Yamada, right?”
Takaki turned to her and smiled. He nodded many times but didn’t say any word. He gritted his teeth hard and looked away, ignored all the hurt he read from the girl.
“Well, I saw the making last night. Your new song. It’s a great song. I like it.”
Takaki smiled widely.
“All of you sing it naturally, like it was all of your true feeling. I mean, you did it too with all of your songs, but, I don’t know. It feels different with this Lucky Unlucky. It feels deep. It feels like you want to say everything out loudly but you can’t. It feels like ..., you want to shout out about something but you can’t.”
Takaki smiled while breathed heavily.
“It feels like you want to say something more but you can’t. What is it?”
Takaki turned to the girl and could see a sincere question in her eyes. He sighed heavily and looked away. “You know what? A secret should be carried deeply inside. Once it leaks, it will change everything.”
Shinkawa stared at Takaki intently, tried hard to read something from his expression, but it was all blank. “The way you behave, the way you look over something, the way you set your point of view, it will change everything on you.”
“They found about it? Your relationship with Yamada?”
Takaki chuckled but didn’t say anything.
“They don’t go against you, do they?”
Takaki laughed more. “I don’t know, but I suddenly want to just disappear.”
Shinkawa almost gaped at the answer.
“I hurt the person I consider very important to me. I made him cry a lot lately. I don’t deserve to even exist in this world. I should disappear.”
“Wait.” Shinkawa grabbed his arms, forced him to face her. “If you disappear, Yamada will cry more. Have you ever think about it?”
“At first, yes, but it will take him no time to get up. He will recover soon.”
Shinkawa suddenly lost her words.
“He will definitely be happy if I let him go.”
Shinkawa looked away and kept quiet for a while. She lost her words to be exact and didn’t know what to say.
“He has everyone around. He will recover soon. In no time he will stand on his feet again like there’s nothing happened. He has all the comfort he needs. He will definitely be fine.”
Shinkawa looked at him in awe. Never once in her life she found a person she considered as very stupid, and now, she found one. He was the person she adored so much. Too much until she wanted to just bang his head to a wall until he got his brain back to him.
“Have you ever heard the quote that said every hurt healed but the scar stays forever?”
Takaki turned to her and nodded. “I know it, but as time passes, it will be faded. He will soon forget about me. Finding new love and live happily ever after. Everyone loves him. It will be easy for him to get up. He will definitely be fine.”
“Then what about you?”
Takaki stunned. He suddenly lost his words. He sighed heavily and looked away.
“I will just disappear.”
“Then let me disappear with you.”
Once again Takaki turned to her and found undoubtedly seriousness in her eyes.
“I won’t let you disappear alone. I will disappear with you.”
Takaki lost his words. He just looked at the girl and didn’t say anything. He gaped, and could only blink his eyes.
“If I stick myself with you, maybe one day you will let me in. I wish.”
Takaki suddenly felt a pang in his heart. He could read clearly the hurt in her eyes. The guilty feeling washed and drenched him.
No one talk and moved for a moment. They just stared at each other, talking without words, sharing all the possible way out for everything, but nothing came altogether in the end. The buzzed of a phone broke their silence and forced Shinkawa to gazed away.
“Ah, my brother’s arrived.”
Takaki blinked many times. “What? Here?”
Shinkawa smiled. “I’m different from you. You can bottle up everything inside you, but I can’t. I shared everything with my important persons.”
“What?”
“Yes. I told them too that I love you. I told them too that it’s unrequited. I told them that you had someone else. They mad at me at first, but finally understood and keep supporting me.”
Takaki gaped.
“At least I have a place when I want to cry.”
Takaki stoned and didn’t know what to say.
“Be sure to sleep right away. Don’t stay up too late. Your concert had been scheduled, and I want you to stay healthy along it.”
The girl took her bag and almost run to the front door. “Have a nice dream
Takaki looked at her until the door of the elevator closed. He stood there, in silence, and didn’t even move. His mind was blank. He didn’t know what to do, until a hand gripped his arm, and woke him from his trance.
“Yuki ...”
His sister smiled and pushed him to enter the room.
“I’m sleeping here tonight, and no, I’m sorry. I don’t receive any rejection with any reason.”
Yuki went to the fridge and served herself with a bottle of water. She stopped for a while while looking at Takaki and sighed.
“I saw her.”
Takaki sat on the couch but didn’t dare to look at his sister.
“What are you doing?”
“I didn’t invite her. She came on her own will.”
She walked over and stood in front of Takaki who looked away. He tried hard not to look at her sister. He knew he was wrong.
A light slap landed on his cheek. Takaki turned to her and threw a silent question about her act.
Yuki sighed heavily. She sat down beside him and looked at him gently. “You hurt everyone.”
Takaki turned away.
“Yua loves you. You knew it from the very beginning. It’s been years and she still loves you, and you use her to keep Yamada away from you. You hurt them. Both Yua and Yamada.”
Takaki could feel his heart stopped beating.
Yuki smiled widely looking at her brother. She pointed at his cheek. “I knew you since forever. I helped Mom to baby you when she was away, so if you think I knew nothing about you, you’re very wrong.”
Takaki gulped. He still didn’t dare to looked at his sister.
“Come on.” Yuki reached for Takaki’s cheek and forced him to face her. “I’m an open minded person. Very open minded. I don’t mind you swing that way. You chose. Then do everything to be responsible for what you have chosen.”
Takaki looked away. “We’re crossing the line.”
“Yes, you are crossing the line, but as long as no one hurt, who cares?”
Takaki breathed heavily. He leaned to the backside of the couch. “It’s easy to talk.”
“It is as easy as talking. You love him, he loves you, that’s enough. Don’t mind what other say. Hello, we are living in millennium era, you know. An era where everybody can choose their own lifestyle. Who cares what people thinks. As long as you hurt no one, just keep going.”
Takaki pulled his hair and gripped them. He wanted to shout out loudly but no word came out of his mouth.
“You think if Yamada knows that you are having relationship with Yua, he will back off? He loves you, too much until he ignores all of the fame he can get if he has a relationship with a girl out there, or even if he marries a girl somewhere. He loves you too much. You do know that.”
Takaki closed his eyes. He could see Yamada was crying in his mind.
“Do you know what people say about Yamada recently?”
Takaki turned fast to Yuki, signed that he didn’t know anything.
Yuki sighed heavily. She reached for her phone and fidgeting it for a while before showed it to Takaki.
“I ... don’t understand.”
“It says, Yamada had a mental breakdown this early year.”
Takaki widened his eyes. He took the phone from his sister and stared at the phone intently.
“The answer is no, if you asked about the articles. I’ve tried to find out on all possible sites but found nothing. So I guess there’s a leak from inside but the journalist couldn’t find any proof so they couldn’t write anything.”
Suddenly the picture of silent Yamada played around in his mind. The way he talked to him lately was different. His absent days became reasonable for him now.
So he was sick those days. He was very sick until he couldn’t manage to even talk to anyone. Mental breakdown. So it means he is very sick, and it’s all about me. All because of me. He must be cried a lot.
Oh my God.
What did I do?
I hurt him.
A lot until he can’t handle it.
Once again, Yuki reached his cheek and forced him to face her. “Fight! I’m behind you.”