well

[deana_moon]

Heres to nothing and no one that listens. Im realizing that I am going to be alone for a long long time. The aching hole within me will not be closed and by the time if I ever find someone again I wont know how to love them because I am learning how to close off my heart. I use to be happy, I use to have someone with me and now Im left alone. I use

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[neros_bane]

I hate to do this because I know that you're low right now, and I do love you, but Deana, you are not the easiest person to be friends with. You never have been

hey

[deana_moon]

Ive been wanting to hang out with you for a long while. Everytime I comment on your journal about how I would love to hang with you and that I am free when ever you kind of blow me off and you know what I do get it. I have been doing better for the most part. I am doing great in school Im just lonely as fuck. Im having a hard time finding someone willing to share thier time with me... I go to school mon thru fri 10am to noon and then i am only working part time for the phone sex thing to keep my averages good....but are you not out of town? I know I smoke a lot although recently I have cut down. Im sorry about that one night I feel uncomfortable around emily and Michelle because they give me the vibe sometimes that I am like shit and they hate me so I dont want to intrude. I know I have not been the best of friends... But I have been changing and I have been doing well lately been pretty happy but I get lonely sometimes and hey when I wrote this you were and supposedly still are out of town. I dont appreciate you bringing up Chris I

Re: hey

[neros_bane]

I'm really happy that you're changing lately. For the last two years or so it's seemed like you were in this hole that you couldn't get out of. I'm not sorry for bringing up Chris because you have and still do talk about him. I understand it to a point because he was a huge chunk of your life.

I am out of town right now until tomorrow, but I would still like to see you and hang out with you.

Leaving comments on Livejournal saying that always seems like a required thing to do if you haven't seen the person in a long while. What I hate is when I actually call you and you never call me back. That irks the shit outta me since I have a hard time calling anyone myself.

Just leaving a comment on LJ for when your times are free doesn't mean that I am free at any of those times. CALL ME.. that is the only semi-guaranteed form of communication where you'll reach me in a timely manner.

Have a better night and I'm sorry if I bought you down more.

Kate

Re: hey

[deana_moon]

Hey I am fine I decided not to let it really get to me because I knew what you were saying is wrong. If you were around me that much you would see that I dont talk about Chris hardly at all once in a while I mention him when hes called me out of the blue to bug the shit out of me but yes I still love him... We have been talking a lil more lately but I dont talk about it because I know your hatred for him as well as everyone elses... And Im sorry but you act like your shit doesnt stink woman what about you and corey? Ive heard about him more and more... Ive seen more down entries in your journal as of late then compaired to mine... We are supposed to be friends and NOT shit on each other everytime we have a bad day and choose to express it... I use this journal personally I write in it as if I am the only person reading it sometimes and if people cant understand that I am a depressed and on medication girl out here trying to make my life better then well maybe people should stop commenting on these things... we all have bad days doesnt