Symbol of Love Part 4
It’s been a week since finding out about the baby. Jared wakes up so excited about the baby. He looks at Jensen who was still sleeping next to him. He crawls up on top of Jensen and starts bouncing.
Jensen wakes up to what you would think was Christmas morning and a five year old Jared wanting to open gifts. “You seem happy.”
“I am. I’m going to be a dad.”
“Um…I know. I was there.”
Jared keeps bouncing. “When do we get to meet him or her?”
“November.”
“Yay…”
“I don’t know how this will work out because Jared, we’ll be filming non stop then. I mean if we didn’t miscarry it would have been July. But I don’t know.”
“I know. But this baby and you come first. I don’t care if I have to work double or if we start working earlier then we normally start. I don’t care. I just want to know you’re fine.”
“I know, but I can’t help now. It’s my fault.”
“We’ll deal with it when the time comes and not before. We don’t need this stress.”
Jensen nods. “Jared, I love you babe, but you really need to stop with the bouncing.”
Jared stops. “Oh…sorry.”
“It’s alright.”
Jared smiles. “Boy or girl?”
“I don’t know.”
“What do you want?”
“You really want to know what I want?” Jared nods big. “A baby. I don’t care for the sex, but I just want the baby. I’ve lost one already. I really want this one Jared.”
Jared nods and leans forward kissing him. “We’ll make it through this one. I know we’ll get to meet them come this November.”
Jensen nods.
*****
~Three Months Later~
Jensen walks out of his trailer to find Jared waiting to walk to the set. “What?”
“Just thought I might walk you to the set.”
“Afraid I might forget where it is?”
“No.”
Jensen nods and stays quiet.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing.”
“Jensen, what is it? You’re only quiet when something is bugging you.”
“I’m fine.”
“Just tell me.”
“NO, cause your going just to aww. I don’t want that.”
“I won’t. I’m used to the morning sickness, which just made it more real.”
“Yeah, but it’s not you puking up their guts is it?”
“No, but I’m the one there next to you making you feel better.”
“I know.”
“Then what is it?”
“My pants are tight.”
“Ok. So?”
“I’m showing Jared.”
Jared smiles wide. “It just makes it more real.”
“I know, but it’s hard to know. We’re filming and no one’s getting a summer vacation like they normally do. We’re working non stop. It’s hard not to blame me for this.”
“It’s not your fault. Yes they don’t get summer vacation, but they get a really long Christmas vacation.”
“I know, but I can’t help it.”
“Just stop blaming yourself.”
Jensen nods.
*****
~July~
Jensen comes back from his doctor’s appointment. He stands up in the bedroom in front of a mirror with no shirt on. He looks at his now rounded stomach which looks a bit like a basketball.
Jared walks in watching him. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m big.”
Jared wraps his arms around him. “You’re five months pregnant.”
“I know.”
“You’re not fat, huge, or big.”
“And you’re not the one carrying around twins.” He walks out of the room.
Jared stand in the middle of the bedroom trying to process what Jensen had just said.
Jensen sits in the nursery which has a crib up and a rocking chair. That was as far as they got before the miscarriage. He has a seat. He just rocks.
Jared walks into the nursery. “Two.”
“Maybe I’m getting the one I lost the first round.”
“Huh…Yeah maybe so. I guess we need to come up with two names.”
Jensen turns and looks at him. “Yeah.”
“What about you pick one and I’ll pick the other?”
“I like that. You pick a girl and a boy and I’ll do the same since we don’t know what we are getting.”
“Sounds like a plan.”
*****
Jared was on set filming as Jensen heads back to his trailer when Misha comes out of his trailer and calls him over.
“Hey Mish.”
“Hey Jens. Could you help me with something?”
“Sure thing.” He walks in to Misha’s trailer.
“I need help moving this chair.”
“Not a problem.”
They both take a side a moves the chair to where Misha wanted it. Jared heads to Misha trailer to tell him they need him on the set when he sees them moving it.
“What the hell are you doing!?”
They both put the chair down. “I was just helping that’s all.”
“You know your not suppose to know be lifting.”
“It wasn’t that heavy Jared.”
“I don’t need you to get hurt.”
“Can I ask what’s going on?”
Jensen looks a Jared as Jared looks at him. At the same time they say, “We’re expecting.”
“Oh wow guys.”
“Thanks.”
“I bet you guys can’t wait.”
“Yeah.”
“I promise Jared I won’t let him lift anything.”
“Good. I need helper to keep an eye on him.” Jensen smirks.
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