Pinch me.....to see if I'm still alive.

[deanluvmachine]

Where is my heart? Life has become a plateau of emotion, and I get little glimpses of what it could feel like, but never fully envelope myself in what I so desire. Being among and in the world of Marat Sade has been really emotionally, physiologically, and physically draining. Day in and day out I do all I can to repel the sadistic and macabre

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:-(

[schwimmli]

Hey! I really hope you are okay, cause I just don't like to read things like that! You always tell me to smile over here in Germany, and I want you to do that too!! Okay? because I miss you soo much and I can't wait for you to get here!!!! Ich denke die ganze Zeit an dich und freue mich auf dich! :-)

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[deanluvmachine]

You always know what to say sweetie.....thanks for cheering me up. Ich vermisse dich so viel.

Much love from US of A.

[deanluvmachine]

You know I honestly think you're right. Maybe by resisting to becoming enveloped in this sinister world, I should accept it and see what I can get out of it. Jamie.....you're such a great guy, and I miss hanging out with you like we use to. We must all hang out soon. Thanks for being concerned for me and I hope to see ya soon bro. Peace.

[_esuaceb]

and you said my away message upset you....

i know what will cheer you up....a yanomamo party.

<3
olivia