Please take my heart, I won't need it anyway, it only takes up space. So rip away these memories, they take me to a place where I am loved and always warm.They feed the pain.Try to, with all your might, to remember happiness, he's with me in my dreams when i'm asleep,I hold him close, and everything's ok. I wish he would just take me now.....Well ( Read more... )

i dunno whos going to read this but... im thinking of making it locked... whatever ( Read more... )

i've never known someone who had to live each day knowing that they could die in a couple weeks. we went to our interviews, they went pretty well. we decided to just go even see if anthony and kenny were here... sure enough. the eclipse was park in the same exact spot as the night before. i called kenny and then walked to jbx to chill with them. we ( Read more... )

friday - i was supposed to go to eles house after school to do my shoot for photo but her dad said no so... that didnt happen. i was in a bad mood after that so i just watched tv and wished that i was anywhere but home. i didnt go to stevens party becuz he straight up told me i couldnt go. haha i understand tho, no biggie. but everyone that did go ( Read more... )

*sigh* everthing is so great! oh im so happy. steven started talking to me again on friday :) i hope he even realizes how happy it makes me just to have things okay between us, i mean, it's just not right for any of the seventh grade homies not talking. seriously, im so happy, just kno that. i had so much fun with natawee, roy, sklele, and steven ( Read more... )

this weekend was pretty good. i spent it all with ele of course. i finally got my camera for photo class last week, it's so cool! i love it. i was gonna go with yazra and sam to do the old town shoot on saturday but sam didnt wanna go so, next weekend. on friday i went to ele's house and spent the night, liz came over too, and tania later. liz left ( Read more... )

i feel so weird lately. like something just isnt right. i dunno, i think im just going crazy and thinking to much... or not thinking enough. whatever, fuck it. fuck everything. all the effort that i make, and how much i fucking care about everyone. they dont care anyways. and im just fucking sick of it. im tired of caring so much and having hardly ( Read more... )

ok gotta tell the story behind the onion. ok so ele came over for dinner last night and marsi's dad was still here and i was cuting an onion. marsi's dad dared me to eat three big ass chunks of it for 20 bucks... so i did it. OMG IT WAS FUCKING GROSS AS HELL. i thought i was gonna throw up, seriously, but i didnt. haha ew. i dont really wanna eat ( Read more... )

well, school was pretty cool, except for the hotness all day. SKIRT TOMORROW. my brother was a loner, sucks for him. yea, after trying to talk to steven all day, i think im just gonna let it go. my feelings won't change about him, but i kno that he needs time. so, no being a pathetic little girl following a boy around. i got my perfect schedule, ( Read more... )