I don't want to, but I have to
Yes, I ate. But only a little! First, it was a bag of SMART popcorn for lunch (120 calories). Then, when I got home, I couldn't hold out any longer. I told myself, "I don't want to starve, but I HAVE TO!" It didn't help. I ate the bigger of the two pieces of Papa Murphy's de-LIGHT pizza. I'm thinking I consumed a rough total of about 320 calories so far today.
So even though I did eat today, I am ok. I figured out that my mind has gotten to the point where I am extreme anorexic. If I eat *anything*, I've messed up. So, why not eat more since I've messed up that day. BUT! I'm training myself to know and understand that eating is ok. I'm still starving, no doubt about that. But if I keep it under a small amount of calories, I'll be fine. Just like today; I keeping it under 400 calories so far. And then tonight, I won't bring money to work. I'll be busy waaaaaaaay too busy with homework after work to eat. Therefore, 320 calories is what I have eaten today and IS ALL I will eat today.
I plan to exercise after homework tonight.
I've drinken so much water today I think my bladder is about to burst. And I've only drinken about 50 ounces! Whatever, I got this. I can do it. Actually...I have to do it.