It's late at night when our minds catch up with us, the lack of stimulation that causes a metal frenzy. You get to thinking of all things done wrong, rehearsing apologies that may never be given life. All the feelings you can deny in the light catch up with you in the dark, you shut your eyes which only makes it worse now. It's strange to think ( Read more... )

Feeling sick and highly irrational, I want to drown you in my bile. Vomit, void void voided, empty being. Living through your dreams, it makes reality so dreary, getting sick of just dreaming.

Trash
Breasts
Hate your pudding
Breasts
Trash
Bearded flavors
Chia chia
Flavored trash
Bearded pudding
Chia breasts

I am, I can, I will... There's no way I want to or I hope I will, I'm going to, and I'm not afraid to say so ( Read more... )

Tired, depressed, and out of sorts. Out of touch. I never thought I would be affected so much. The hate inside, conflicts with the confusion, you're niave until you try ( Read more... )

Found out at work today that the girl who has been only working there for 2 months is training the new girl because " supposedly you make a lot of little mistakes, and asked dumb questions" from another co worker, but my boss tells me all the time how great of an employee I am and how happy they are to have me around. I'm sick to shit of working ( Read more... )

Ive been spending most of my day off laying in bed, super sore from p90x yoga (day 6 of plan), but I'm already starting to see a difference. Usually I hate feeling lazy but today I don't mind taking my time. I've been having a lot of weird and perverted dreams these past couple nights. I can wait to move to California, so close.... It's grey out Nd ( Read more... )

Horny

A lot.

Starting my 90 days of p90x tomorrow.

Hate being fake all day.

Ordered a piece of my self online.

Out of stock

Feeling like complete and total shit. Why do I constitanly get sinus infections ?! I take such good care of myself. I don't get it?! Maybe it's because Oregon is a damp, moldy fucking rain puddle. My sinuses will probably do much better in California. I could literally lay in bed all day, and do nothing ( Read more... )

I'm so full.

Chocolate cravings that never end.

Will I ever be anything I want to be in my life ? Does life sometimes just work like that ?
I know I have it in me.

I feel distant and sometimes uninterested.

I don't want that, a part of me is so rotted.