every other fucking thought
i will not miss this obsession

politics, politics, politics

i hate it

i suck at it

new med script sitting filled at my local pharmacy
images of workplace politics slamming against medicated veneer

and sleepless nights

shadows
images
perrceptions
ideals
mondays
moon days

Sunday with a sibling
farmlands stretch to distant mountains
warm breezes rustle January leaves
two young men
lives lived apart
yet together still
the beat of one heart

but Monday
moon day
blue moon
blue day

amazing how the boys of nsync buoy my spirit. this is the second time they’ve done this for me. the first time was, well...lemme see. hmmm 1999? no, 2000 i think. let’s see. 2000 was no strings attached tour, 2001 pop odyssey, 2002 celebrity. yep i think that’s it. anyway. in 2000 i was in deep depression after my dad’s death. it’d been ( Read more... )

such a simple solution to my depressive state ( Read more... )

like steam in the morning bathroom
unable to wipe clear an image on the mirror
i know who resides in the reflection
but i can't find her
lost in the fog of a morning shower
yet still driving dangerously blinded
and despicably depressed

late at work yet again.
'nuf said

well... even though i claim apathy, i'm actually confounded by my emotional response to a work-related experience. i got my client a job. but it wasn't the one i wanted. not the one i was authorized to offer and then forced to take back. the whole mess ended with employment for him...he seemed to accept all of ( Read more... )

three days sick at home last week and now i'm more behind in my work than ever. well, that's not true. a few months ago the backlog may have been worse. anyway...i'm struggling to focus on paperwork. just the first step in the redundancy ( Read more... )

was just watching a bit of the dish, an australian movie ( Read more... )

so i left the office and stood at the bus stop thinking of my choices. tears welled and freed themselves from unwilling eyes...several times punctuated by steely resolve to not think about my mire ( Read more... )