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He's right. If any of us lost our senses, we'd die. Blind assassins are for movies, not real life.
If I die, I'll go to Hell. I know this. No amount of confession or penance is going to change that. I've shed too much blood. I'm going to die in the field without last rites, without anything, because of what I do needs to be done. I have to believe we're doing something worthwhile or I just--
I've just been wondering if Hell will be any worse than this. I used to look forward to the flower shop, to coaching, to my days off and nothing but my Kawasaki under me and the open road. I remember enjoying things.
And I just... don't seem to anymore.
If I die, I'll go to Hell. I know this. No amount of confession or penance is going to change that. I've shed too much blood. I'm going to die in the field without last rites, without anything, because of what I do needs to be done. I have to believe we're doing something worthwhile or I just--
I've just been wondering if Hell will be any worse than this. I used to look forward to the flower shop, to coaching, to my days off and nothing but my Kawasaki under me and the open road. I remember enjoying things.
And I just... don't seem to anymore.