fuck men
fucking dating them
i don't even wanna fuck them anymore

I'm beginning to think that I'm completely full of false confidence. I can be completely fine with myself but as soon as a girl I feel is prettier than me, I go into a depression. I'm crying about this for fuck sakes! All it took was a picture of Ryan's ex, she's so much prettier than me! I hate this!

I'm having real trouble breathing. I feel like I can't  get enough air into my lungs and it feels like my heart can't pump as smoothly. My mom might take me to the doctor tonight. i was fine when I woke up this morning. I was getting ready for school which included taking a shower. So, I'm in th shower and I had just conditioned my hair and I was ( Read more... )

Waiting
Dallas Green

A coma might feel better than this,
Attempting to discover, where to begin,
You're weighed down you're full of something,
Of sickness and desertion,
You're weighed down you're full of something,
You're underneath it all.

So say goodbye to love,
And hold your head up high,
There's no need to rush,
We're all just waiting, waiting to die.

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     I haven't felt this miserable in a long time. The kind of miserale where your body feels heavy and tired, you can't smile even if you want, your mind is thinking the worst possible things and you're feeling the worst possible things. I just wanna go back to sleep but I don't wanna fall asleep and have bad dreams ( Read more... )

 I really get torn sometimes about whether it is better to be single or to be taken.
It seems like when you're single you have the ultimate freedom. You can go where you please, talk to who you please, do whatever you please and you don't have to worry about what a special someone is going to think or say to you. Worrying about what your friends ( Read more... )

 It's now reading week! Thank God!!! I had 3 tests this week! Psych, English and Sociology! The wording on some of the questions in psych and sociology were confusing. Some of the psych questions, in my opinion and Sabina's, had two answers on the multiple choice! The teacher fully stated in one question that avoidant and resistantinfants were the ( Read more... )

OMG HEATH LEDGER IS DEAD!!! He was found at 3pm today in a hotel room. They aren't sure if it was a suicide or an accidental drug overdose!!! I'm so shocked and kind sad!!!

I went to see Shanna yesterday after school and she tells me that Tiffany told her that Ryan has been talking to her! As a reminder Tiffany is the girl that was hitting on him in late October/early November. We has established that she was not to be in our lives in anyway. I yelled at her and "yelled" at her as well over email and we both blocked ( Read more... )

I always get the guys that are not who I think they are. Every single time I see it going somewhere amazing, in a direction I want it to go in! After the first few months though it always goes to shit. They turn into these assholes that I don't recognize as my boyfriend anymore. Am I doing something wrong? The main issues for the past 2 bf's has ( Read more... )