Theatrical Muse Catch-up Feb/Mar/April - Topics 428, 430 & 436
It was so very frustrating to forget something vital. Especially when it came to a test. Everything had to go smoothly, completely perfectly, or else something could go wrong. The game might not be fair, allowing the subject to escape without learning his or her lesson, or the whole thing might turn into an unwinnable trap. No, each piece of the puzzle had to be exactly in place for everything to be able to work.
There had been mistakes, such as with Cecil, in the very beginning. But John had learned from experience and managed to do better each time with his games, especially with his apprentices there to give him assistance. Concentration could be extremely difficult at times as John’s cancer worsened, but he made no excuses for himself due to the illness. In fact, John was harder on himself as his time ran out - he had to be.
That’s why he found himself cursing mentally and calling himself stupid when he realized that he had left out a vital task before beginning to design a test - probably the most important thing he could have done before attempting to draw a new trap.
He was not concentrating because he was dehydrated. He’d forgotten to get himself a glass of water.
John counted himself very lucky to have Amanda on hand at that very moment.
Words: 225
Muse: John Kramer AKA Jigsaw
Fandom: Saw
Bed time is whenever I want it to be - or, more accurately, when I need it to be.
Sometimes I just have to listen to my tired and dying body and stop for a while, take a rest. Amanda especially encourages me to. Seeing the worry in her eyes hurts, as much as I try to remain detached emotionally and dedicated to my life’s work.
Often I berate myself, for I wish I had the discipline to keep working around the clock, to stay awake and make sure I complete the plans for as many tests as I can. My apprentices help me with this, but I must still be the mastermind for now. They are not quite ready to carry on my work without me. After all, I am far from dead.
But staying awake for too long just is not feasible all the time. There is such a thing as being realistic, after all, and just as I have to still eat and drink, there are times when I must simply give in to the lure of sleep for my work’s sake as much as my own.
Words: 189
Muse: John Kramer AKA Jigsaw
Fandom: Saw
The last time I got a haircut was very recently, actually. It was just last night and it was only a slight trim. My hair is kind of thin and wispy at the best of times, very fine - I never have had chemotherapy so I haven’t lost any that way - but it’s just the way it goes with my hair. But there were a few straggly bits falling forward in my eyes so I asked Amanda if she’d clip them off for me so I could see better to draw.
She very willingly did so, being tender and careful with me as she always does when doing anything like this for me. When she touches me, there’s an aspect of something unspoken but very beautiful there - her hands convey to me an affection that no words ever could. I know that I must remain detached emotionally for my work’s sake - but feelings stir each time she is close like this. For the moment, I dare not speak about what I feel either.
Words: 172
Muse: John Kramer AKA Jigsaw
Fandom: Saw
There had been mistakes, such as with Cecil, in the very beginning. But John had learned from experience and managed to do better each time with his games, especially with his apprentices there to give him assistance. Concentration could be extremely difficult at times as John’s cancer worsened, but he made no excuses for himself due to the illness. In fact, John was harder on himself as his time ran out - he had to be.
That’s why he found himself cursing mentally and calling himself stupid when he realized that he had left out a vital task before beginning to design a test - probably the most important thing he could have done before attempting to draw a new trap.
He was not concentrating because he was dehydrated. He’d forgotten to get himself a glass of water.
John counted himself very lucky to have Amanda on hand at that very moment.
Words: 225
Muse: John Kramer AKA Jigsaw
Fandom: Saw
Bed time is whenever I want it to be - or, more accurately, when I need it to be.
Sometimes I just have to listen to my tired and dying body and stop for a while, take a rest. Amanda especially encourages me to. Seeing the worry in her eyes hurts, as much as I try to remain detached emotionally and dedicated to my life’s work.
Often I berate myself, for I wish I had the discipline to keep working around the clock, to stay awake and make sure I complete the plans for as many tests as I can. My apprentices help me with this, but I must still be the mastermind for now. They are not quite ready to carry on my work without me. After all, I am far from dead.
But staying awake for too long just is not feasible all the time. There is such a thing as being realistic, after all, and just as I have to still eat and drink, there are times when I must simply give in to the lure of sleep for my work’s sake as much as my own.
Words: 189
Muse: John Kramer AKA Jigsaw
Fandom: Saw
The last time I got a haircut was very recently, actually. It was just last night and it was only a slight trim. My hair is kind of thin and wispy at the best of times, very fine - I never have had chemotherapy so I haven’t lost any that way - but it’s just the way it goes with my hair. But there were a few straggly bits falling forward in my eyes so I asked Amanda if she’d clip them off for me so I could see better to draw.
She very willingly did so, being tender and careful with me as she always does when doing anything like this for me. When she touches me, there’s an aspect of something unspoken but very beautiful there - her hands convey to me an affection that no words ever could. I know that I must remain detached emotionally for my work’s sake - but feelings stir each time she is close like this. For the moment, I dare not speak about what I feel either.
Words: 172
Muse: John Kramer AKA Jigsaw
Fandom: Saw