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paul

Aug 14, 2005 19:53

silence deafens as we ride in the dark ( Read more... )

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late night phone call ! anonymous August 15 2005, 22:21:48 UTC

lol i'm so sorry but i am still laughing . . that was so funny . . "man i thought it was time to get up in the morning!" hahahahahhahahahahahaha my gahd that just brought me SO much joy . . . i can't STOP laughing . . whew ok this is going to be long! first off you are mean when you are woken up! 2.i love you so much . . my god i do and i thank god you are in my life, i'm sure i've told you all of this b4 but i'm hoping after tonight's conversation you realize how deeply i mean it. you are truly amazing . . and like i always said when i looked at you i saw something that other ppl didn't see, i'm not sure why others couldn't and i could . . that i guess i'll never know, but i had to take a deeper look to see what i did . . . you on the other hand didn't take a deeper look . . and you saw what others saw. part of me is very hurt that you didn't . . the other part is just kinda blah about everything . . even tonight . . i don't know what to think b/c the same thing keeps going through my mind over and over and i just keep asking myself ( ... )

ya it was to long to post at once! anonymous August 15 2005, 22:23:52 UTC

and no matter who wants me it makes no difference to me . .b /c the one i want i can't have. and yes i am saying that a lot b/c i need to realize it. after i got off the phone w/ you . . i felt tears coming so i rushed to go and take a shower . . at least there i couldnt' feel the tears . . i thought about tons of things . . and i thought about how at one point . . i could of had you . . . even for a short amount time . . i could have and i totally completely passed you up . . i'm not sure what you are thinking right now but i sure wish i did. i kinda replay that day over and over and think if i would have done something different . . if i would have seemed more interested . . if i idk . . if i would have done SOMETHING . . then maybe this wouldnt' have happened. i don't know what to do . .and the sad thing is that there is nothing for me or you to do but go on the way we have been. i don't want anything to change b/c i have to have you in my life. ahah and what song just randomly came on my itunes site . . yup . . i'll be . . LOL ( ... )