[Private to Tieria]

[deathbysweets]

You wanted a place just the two of us, here it is. I want to know you're complete opinion of me and why. I still don't see your point, given that we all have momentary lapses in judgment. You also have no understanding of my recent history, so you couldn't begin to fathom my mental state

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[you_are_unfit]

I have to admit, I'm a little surprised you were willing to actually talk to me one on one.

I think you are worthless and a burden. When Hisoka-san was kidnapped by Muraki, you were too busy obsessing over yourself and that doll to be of any use. Other people needed to step in and hold you by the hand while they saved your partner. Your lack of confidence is only founded because you have no skills to be proud of, but that does not excuse it.

You past means nothing to me, only what actions you take in the present. You cause Hisoka-san unnecessary stress and force him to make up for you failures by putting in more than his share into the 'partnership.' It isn't really a partnership at all, is it? There isn't any give and take, only you dragging him down when he could be living up to so much more of his potential.

He is a good person, and you are ruining that. I do not trust you to keep him safe.

[deathbysweets]

Hisoka considers you a brother, which means that you have to be likable sometimes. He's hard to get close to, and you deserve respect for respecting him as much

[you_are_unfit]

Asking for understanding is another way of asking me to overlook your faults, and I cannot do that. I told you, your past means nothing to me, nor how long you spent with Muraki. It is how reliable and efficient you are in the present that counts with me, and you have failed with both attributes

[deathbysweets]

I do not feel that I am a disgrace nor do I feel I deserve punishment. I was still recovering from something that I'd rather not discuss and it was Tatsumi's own decision to leave me out. If I had joined, I would have only hindered the mission.

Strength isn't only measured by how much you can accomplish with natural ability. True strength is also knowing your limits. If I had gone on that mission, it would have become a much dangerous situation.

I am not weak for staying out of the mission. I am strong for knowing that going would have caused Hisoka more harm than good. As much as you are entitled to your opinion, I am entitled to disregard it. You do not approve of me, but you are only one person. My intent with these words is not to offend you, but I can't think of anything else that would get them across.

I have much I feel I need to atone for, but being Hisoka's partner is not something I regret.