[Filtered from Tieria]

[deathbysweets]

I don't know what else to do. I was angry at first, but now, after all he's said...and Hisoka agrees...I'm not sure how much, but he does...at least he seems to.

Am I really...so worthless?

An...I think I really need your words right now.

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[bananas_an]

What did he say now?

You are NOT worthless. That person is full of opinions about everyone--all wrong. Ignore him. Idiot.

[deathbysweets]

We had a one on one talk. His words...the way he views me because of this one event....saying my past means nothing...and Hisoka....not once has he defended me. I'm starting to...

I'm not losing him, am I?

[bananas_an]

He's an idiot, and he's wrong. Don't listen to the opinions of people who don't matter to you, Tsuzuki. I know Hisoka didn't respond to that one thread, but maybe he hasn't seen it.

Impossible. Not happening.

[deathbysweets]

Hisoka considers him a brother, so there's gotta be something about him. Someone so close to Hisoka, I really don't want him hating me...not about this one time thing.

I hope you're right.

[hex_you_up]

Oh, darling. You aren't worthless.

[deathbysweets]

I try to tell myself that, but even the one I care the most about is calling me a hapless idiot. It's hard to feel you're worth anything when your own boyfriend talks like that.

[hex_you_up]

But he still loves you. And there are plenty of other people who love you and care for you. That, alone, means you aren't worthless.

[deathbysweets]

I know he does, I really do...but...I'm not exactly a secure person due to events in my life and thereafter....and I've come to depend on Hisoka for more than I should. The fact that he seems to have so little faith in me at the moment...isn't an easy concept for me to handle well.

Re: [screened to Tsuzuki]

[deathbysweets]

I'm sorry. I really am. I don't mean to drag you down with me.

It's just...I tried to talk to Tieria. I only made things worse. And his words, Hisoka...he says everything short of calling me inhuman. I wanted to make it work. I wanted us to be civil, to explain my side. It's not good enough...and now...he's said the right things to make me feel inadequate.

Re: [screened to Tsuzuki]

[deathbysweets]

You'll have to forgive me. He's just pushed all the right buttons. I'm starting to think that he'll try anything to get you away from me because of his beliefs, and that's one thing I will not stand for.

I know you can take care of yourself, but the fact that he's trying so hard leaves me a bit more angry than I should be.