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[deathbysweets]

I'm not sure what to do anymore. This isn't fair to Hisoka at all. The nightmares are getting worse and the perpetual fear is returning. I don't want to rely on Hisoka too much right now, though. He needs me as much as I need him

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[nobodys_library]

Fear alone can be crippling, perpetual fear moreso. And the human memory is all to willing to lie.

Which I doubt is much of an answer to your questions, but they are the truth of the matter, at least.

[deathbysweets]

....you seem to be the only person that understands how I feel.

It doesn't answer anything, but it does provide understanding. Thank you.

[nobodys_library]

A sad state of affairs, that your friends can't see past what lies in front of their eyes. But then again, perhaps they haven't the experience to understand.

You're welcome.

[deathbysweets]

I think this is something you need to experience to comprehend. There's only a couple people who fit in that category that I know.

[freerent_ftw]

You aren't being a fucking burden to anyone Aniki. If you're depressed I'm sure everyone would rather you clinging onto them instead of hiding away.

[deathbysweets]

...I didn't private this, did I?

I don't want to do it with Hisoka strictly because he already has enough on his plate, not to mention I can't hide this well. It would be painful for him. An, on the other hand...

[freerent_ftw]

Nope, not in the slightest.

Then don't always go running to Hisoka. You have other family here. They won't mind dealing with your depression. That's what a normal family is suppose to be like right? Supporting each other and shit?

[deathbysweets]

I just try not to....because it ends up causing people trouble in the end. I'm sorry....I'm not used to...family. Not since Ruka...

[bananas_an]

Onii-chan....

[deathbysweets]

An....

[bananas_an]

Do you want to tell me about it?

[deathbysweets]

...nee-chan...

[bananas_an]

I can't go there, not now. You know why.

Are you alright?

[[ooc: Oh noes! Hisoka's going to be gone, right? And An can't come to Meifu because of the stupid stuff happening to her. What's the story for Hisoka while you're away?]]

[bananas_an]

Like you'd have to ask! I want to be there for him, but I can't. ;__;

You didn't answer my question. I'm...yesterday was Kippei's birthday.

I've been watching the creepiest show. Hey, Hisoka, since we know other fandoms exist, do you suppose that every book or movie or anime and their characters are around somewhere?

[[That sounds good. I wanted to know if An should panic about Hisoka disappearing, too. XD ]]

[belovedruka]

Honestly. I spend all this time searching for you and I find you in this state. Didn't I teach you better?

[deathbysweets]

[deathbysweets]

[deathbysweets]

Ruka!