work itself today was bad, crappy, but i felt better about shara in the sense i knew what is going on. a black dude gave her a letter saying hes been watchin her lately :S anyway, when i got home, she said we weretalking too much though....

spoke to her on msn, she said liam text her sayin she should come round n he will make he smile...hes always ( Read more... )

Tomorow im gonna call her on lunch but i doubt she'll answer we got different lunch hours, i cant get annoyed, after work i dunno what im doing, shes out with her brother to the pub, so i guess im in alone. monday, holly is moving here, i doubt ill see her then.  its juts i gotta keep my cool.

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today, i took her to work and becuase again she didnt say anything, i just told her to go. but i called her straight away, and after arguing, she said its over, but pulled back from that. I went home, got upet again so i just went to sleep. i woke up in a good mood, i thought id surprise her, buy her lunch and forget it all. but when she met me she ( Read more... )

I just got back from picking her up, when she was outside the pub she looked really happy, made me happy, thinking she would be nice to me, but the whole way home, she didnt say a word. Instead, she spent it texting, and to who? Liam....whatever. But the worst part was when we got to hers, she wouldnt even look at me, she had a go at me again, i ( Read more... )

Scrap that...

She forgot.

I wish she would want to see me.

I just don't know how much longer I can do this.

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One of the things on my mind at the moment with her is why i get worked up. So i been thinking, why not just ask my self what needs to happen to get it off my mind?

well in this instance, i just want a text back, for her to tell me whats up and reassurance on how shes feeling.

- sounds very er.....business like :S i just dont wanna lose the girl, i ( Read more... )

so i went to see her tonight. I went to see mark n the gang at the cheiftan, it was pretty poor so i went to drive to st.albans. gt there and argue with shara, she tells me shes meeting with nikos and toby with holly - the guy who likes her and the guy who woke up with her.....

i was livid, we spoke again and i drove upset at 70mph with no ( Read more... )

''You're the one that i wanted to find'' - Green Eyes By Coldplay.

Within two seconds of this songs i felt compelled to call her. I need to give her space, but i feel like ive done something wrong. It all going the same as before. Its going to end. I don't want to be without her, but i don't want to be unhappy anymore. Does she still love me?

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i gotta keep the positive mindset, ignore the negative. live in the moment. love myself. shine through. be confident. make an impact. enjoy life and live.