apologies

[deathly_angel]

ok, so i know that i have been pushing people away, and that i have treated alot of people badly this year, and towards the end of last school year. i have hated myself and did not want to subject my friends to that side of me. i have made many mistakes that NOBODY need to get from me, i have a bad temper that i lost some control over for a while.

Comments

[deathly_angel]

one more thing, a thank you to the person who helped me finally get the guts to post this, and to hunter and danielle who have made me stop

luv ya girl

[scully87]

jen, i know you have been through a lot these past few years ... and i am sorry for pushing you away these past few weeks and hope to talk to you soon about it ... and i am glad you have stopped!!! luv ya if you need me you know how to reach me
~heather

[i_run_800]

well i guess i am the clueless one.... scars, as in somethinglike the ones on my shins? well i guess it proves that i realy went away, b/c i dont know about that, and didnt know while we went out... i have just noticed i put .... alot. roandom, back to topic... i think your just changing and finding yourself. you want to become a new jen, well in doing that you are changing your friends. it happens. people may not like the new ones, and will be sad that they are being left behind to remember the old you. but is anything realy changing? or are you running further away from yourself? i guess im just not a nice guy, but screw the people who dont like you. i dont think you should care about me, b/c i never give you a chance on anything. not b/c you went crazy one day, b/c honestly i dont remember that. i mean you did sometimes, but nothing as massive as you describe. i dont know why i do it, but i have moved alog. i probably sound like as ass and shouldnt have even replied, but i did and i am just typing a crap load of

[deathly_angel]

something like the scars on your shins, but not quite as big, and you will never remember seeing them b/c i told you that they were something else. and if you remember, i did not start b/c of you, or even continue b/c of you after a while it just became this normal thing w me, every morning and every night, a habit, almost like a drug, so it wasn;t your fault

song

[i_run_800]

the last line and a half sound like song lyrics...

Re: song

[deathly_angel]

thanks, i always wanted to write songs

I LOVE YOU JEN!

[anonymous]

JEN!!!!! i applaud you on your courage to tell everyone that...it was very brave of you to let that side of you be known...maybe now everything will get better now that people know this stuff about you...i already knew and i accepted it and i am very proud of you and your refusal to continue to do it...you have no idea how much i admire your strength and willpower...i love you sweetie! i'll talk to you later...tell hunter i said hi since he's back and i'm pretty sure you have seen him by now...stay good.

Heather

Re: I LOVE YOU JEN!

[anonymous]

how does letting people know that you are stupid and want to kill yourself make things better? just wondring

Re: I LOVE YOU JEN!

[anonymous]

thats not what i meant and you know it.

Re: I LOVE YOU JEN!

[deathly_angel]

shut up, please. that was really hard for me to tell everyone

[anonymous]

jen i'm glad you can share this with everyone its a mojor step to helpping us, your dear friends who love you bunches, help you, now that more people know you will be less likely to start up again and i know it took a lot of courage to do this. now that i know how unhappy you were with yourself i can realise why you were having so many problems with friends you subconsciencely push people away because you do not want to disapoint or hurt then i totaly understand that aspect of your problems for i went through something like it but not to the point you did . just know i love you and will always be here for you to help and listen when i'm needed
love
~shliz~

[deathly_angel]

thanks, shliz, i needed that