so the latest convo. between zain and i thats got me so down....

[deathmetal_god]

I said:

well its more of a thought in my head how people would picture things if we did go back out this soon. they would think either i was desperate or you wanted a re-bound girlfriend...and i know i should care what people think...but unfortunatly i do.

i wasnt offended by her comment, but it was kinda embarassing to me a little bit..oh well.

Comments

[ashmac15]

It's hard.. I'm having the same thing with one of my friends... almost the same thing... and it's difficult, but you've gotta try to get over those "lover" feelings, lol.... Don't stop hanging out with him, because that would just hurt him in turn.

[deathmetal_god]

yeah but why is it always me getting hurt and never him....i hate that

[rainbowragdoll]

yeah that is how i felt with my plan x. he was never getting hurt and my heart was always torn. so i had to step away. you need to as well kerri. hes not worth the hurt and i finally realized that. you deserve so much better. i love you

<3 cocopuff

btw dont tell ANYONE who my plan x is.
and i wrote that thing when we were still.... like how we were haha
please.
im trusting you
cuz katie on the prowl to find out who it is and i wont tell her haha
and if i find out you told her
ill shank you.
<3

[deathmetal_god]

ok...dont worry...your secret is safe with me woman! yeah i kinda decided that things just were not going right and he was pretty much filling my head with ideas that i know were not true...he said he still liked me and i think it was just to make me happy...boys suck....

[rainbowragdoll]

OMG
i forgot to tell you
guess the name of my old plan x's new girlfriend...
COURTNEY!
are you fucking kidding me?!
hahaha
soooo ironic and weird.

[deathmetal_god]

oh lord..........sick...i bet your sex is better