So... Ya... I just wanted to say that I mite be getting better... I mean I'm still crazy as all hell, but I'm doing ok in my eyes and thatz all that really counts... right? right. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately... mostly about my life and where itz going.... not very far... but.. I'll fix it someday.... I know I will... I have also been ( Read more... )

I'm with Keith RIGHT NOW!!! I'm super happy!!! I love him so... much!!! He makes everything go away... EVERYTHING!!! and not to mention he's so.. damn hot!!! lol... Ya... so... he's reading this right now and I got a "Woah!" from him!!! Peace out! Deaths Gift

So... The nite before yesterday I hung out with Megan... it was fun and all but when I got home Kevin was waiting to scream at me... he always says the most aweful things to me.... but decpite whut anyone says I cannot do ANYTHING! I'm so sick and tired of hearing "You're almost 19... there's nothing they can do" " You're gonna stay here cuz I want ( Read more... )

I wanna go to the camp so.. badly... I have no way to get there though.. if I get Megan to go then I will... maybe today... yesterday my mom was too much of a bitch to let me go ne where... nothing new though... I need another cig... peace out!

So..ya! Today was a looong day at work..too loooong! But right before work... Keith and me did something naughty!!! NO!!! not that!!! But close haha... We wrote each other crazy... comments on My space...hahahahahaha it was mostly to see whut people would say... so whut do u think of me and Keith! haha We are a crazy couple... but he is so... ( Read more... )

Well.. haven't written in a few days... Just wanted to remind myself how great just a few days were last week... But thatz cuz I was with my hot hot boyfriend... Keith... Karnage! I love him more than I have ever loved anyone in my life... I have really only hated people but I think thatz because I was saving all my love for him... I still can't ( Read more... )

So... ya.. I am in school right now.. I know its amazing right?... I have been feeling pretty sick latley..I think itz my anxiety... I cried actually when I had to come to school this morning.. but i went to Craker barrel... It was good and I ate a lot!!!... I need to get back to work now...
Buried in pieces....
Death's gift.........aka.......

Once again... I didn't go to school... I hate it there, but at the same time... I hate myself... I can't believe I'm just about giving up on something... I never give up... I mean I went out with Joe for almost five years... GOD!!! I miss that bastars, and itz eating me alive knowing he is so happy... I'm miserable... the only thing that makes life ( Read more... )

Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one ( Read more... )

So... ya... This is an honest journal... on Saturday I really almost committed suicide... no one knew until I wrote this... I can't take life any more... I mean I finally find someone that I can see myself with for the rest of my life, and I can barely see him... I can't take it any more... I had the pills in my hand and all I needed was the water ( Read more... )