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[deathxisxeasy]

This journal is friends only because I hate people. I will not add anyone if you are in the drama going on in my life. This is not so I can talk about people behind their backs, but so I can express how I feel without people taking it personally or looking too far into what I say.

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[etseq]

i read the story on your baby girl on your web page.
it's so sad.
not to be another reminder of it all.
as the mother though, they've made laws that alloy you so say "GIMME BACK!" and they have to.
maybe you could get on your feet first- maybe gradumacate and start driving and then you could take care of her.
i'm really sad for her though, because it's bullshit that they'll tell her about you when she's 8. 8!? if i would have been told at 8 that everything about my parents was a lie, i'd FLIP. they should tell her from the start, and have you come for visits!
that is of course just my opinion.. but i only express it out of worry...
i'll shut up now.
i'mma add you.

[deathxisxeasy]

Well, here the state law is that once the final adoption papers are signed, that's it. And those papers were signed on May 27th 2003. The only legal record of her being my child now is the birth certificate I hate...

I always felt that telling her when she was 8 was too late, but I never complained ecause they were the best option we had...

I could never take her back though, even though I have dreams about getting her back, and I go by her house and wish that I could so much as see her...But I an't take her back, taking her away form that family would devastate all of them.

I just hope she doesn't hate me...

[etseq]

she should still be allowed to see you more often and she should know from the fucking get go that YOU are her mommy cause 8 is pretty devastating.

but, i doubt that she could hate you- when she's older, if they raise her well (which you seem to think theyd do) she won't have any grudges. <3

[deathxisxeasy]

I don't know, they're very conservative, and I'm very not. And sometimes I think of going ot a mental institution to get better orsomething, but I'm held back by the fact that if they find out they might not let me see her....

I'm terrified of that..

[faeryhideout]

i've added you... hope u don't mind.

[deathxisxeasy]

Not at all

[broadway_scene]

hey hot stuff! it's angela [turpentine_love]. i got tired of my old user_name, so this is my new one, add it please?

:}!

[deathxisxeasy]

Will do

[hate_the_state]

added

[purpleside]

i think you are well-spoken and interesting, we should be friends...maybe we can help each other out sometimes...

[deathxisxeasy]

Ok....

Thank you...

I'll add you....