im in love with the world. and my grrls. i work to hard to. my guitar told me today that i was called, why didnt i stand? not enough time i think. gotta return. i think. does guilt control us all? architect of civilization, fear of return. surely not. are my thoughts not my own? whose ideals have been expressed. in all this i have a clarity, a ( Read more... )

time as It seems from this perch deified ( Read more... )

yesterday was daddy daughter party day. terra went out with her mom and let me stay at home all day with my bunny faces. we played all day. i brought my guitar and mike stand into the living room and put on a metal show for my grrrl. when i play for her she squeals and rocks in her bouncer like shes moshing. the louder and heavier the better. a few ( Read more... )

terra told me that i should start spaceing after periods. sorry if i've alienated one of the 4 people that actually read my journal. if you are reading this feel free to tell me how shitty of a job i do keeping a journal. any comment at all would be welcome. i've done this fucking thing sense november of last year and the only comments i've ever ( Read more... )

i spent this mothers day at the place that i grew up in.my mothers house in the woods in l.c.i pissed in the woods for the first time in months.on the same rock that i pissed on every day before school.i felt home.i felt free.i wish teela could experiance growing up in a forest lile i did.my mom told me i could move a trailer on to her land but i ( Read more... )

if you haven't noticed my writeings are some what speratic at best and my spelling that of your average right hemishere day tripper.but i'll try to put my flood into words.i've had a rough life but i never whine or use it for attention.to me thats a sighn of weakness.strenghth for strenghths sake is a dillusion of guilt bent for selfish purpuses. ( Read more... )

nobody wants to be my freind.i suppose i suck.today at work a new guy i hate went out of his way to be nice to me.i've never been so pissed.the most annoying thing in the world is a suck ass.this guy is one of those guys that are 4 feet tall and bullet proof.i call it the little man complex.over compancation for poor genetics.his false smile and ( Read more... )

the sky is blue because of the short wave length of blue light being easily scattered by the atmosphere.if this is true why isn't the sky violet? its a shorter and more readily dispersed wave length.and how come the sun appears yellow when yellow is a higher wave length than both?and why dose the moon appear white through the same atmosphere?

free water eilama, thats the price washers tend to lean at.observe my cat,for instance,woke up hungry only to sleep again.try some new lotion and make damn sure this time.white nuckled bread earner.why if its true is the sun yellow and not blue?i digress.

terra rocks.today i came home early and made the sweet love to my lady.i just figured that i would let everyone know in case you always wanted to know how great it is to be me.to all the internet stalkers waiting on me to slip keep waiting.i may slip but i won't fall off ( Read more... )