Updating from phone... Yay.
" />We have no Internet and I want to write so badly that I am using the app on my phone. Having no Internet really sucks when you can't sleep during the night. I have been thinking of this summer and all the things I have wanted to do. So far I have done nothing. It bugs me because I'd like to be having a bit more fun with my life. I think that I do love working full time. I am actually very happy at my job. As I have stated before. I think that I just need better balance. My witchy side has been completely messed up. I set up my altar yesterday to help connect but I don't feel much right now. I suppose it doesn't help that I haven't felt well today. I have taken a hiatus from my YouTube channel. Merely because of lack of balance and the fact that I don't want to deal with people right now. I do believe that I do a great deal of good with my channel but I feel a little bit discouraged for the time being. I am thinking maybe I need to sit with my candles and just listen. I don't think I am doing much of that lately.
My niece was born on Sunday. I have to say, she's beautiful. And even though I have not met her yet, I can already tell I love her very much. I really wish I could be home to meet her. It's hard to believe Brent is a father. I keep thinking back to when we were kids. I guess it only makes sense that he would be the first one to have a child. He is the oldest. :) my mother told me that the baby looks like me. When I saw the picture I was pretty surprised. She has her auntie's hair. Wow. It's crazy. I need to find some time to come home soon. I was suppose to be there now. But money and other things got in the way. Some part of me is nervous about going home. Because that means I have to come to terms with my grandfather's death. Something I don't think I have been able to do yet... Walking into my grandparents house just might be the kicker for me. I miss him so much...
There's a lot running through my head tonight. I almost want to go for a drive and listen to music to clear my thoughts.
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