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[deeepred]

Today I was doing one of the most monotonous and boring jobs ever, and during those 6 hours my mind was running free. I noticed that thinking of my ex doesn't hurt anymore, instead, whenever I recall memories of us or see his pictures online, my mind goes blank. Where there was pain and desperation now there's nothing. A void, an empty space where

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[dyspayre]

yes you actively looked for my flaws, and decided that was all i was.. a flaw.

sorry your feeling this way, but happy youve moved on from dickhead

[deeepred]

Not true sweetie, not true; your biggest flaw is that you live on the other side of the pond, and you have it in common with many other guys. I know how much effort it takes to be in a long distance relationship, so I will think twice before entering one again.
And if you remember our last conversation you said that I was too demanding and that you felt still young etc. etc.
Yes, I do am demanding and will keep being it for everybody's sake, mine included.

[xfallendemonx]

everyone has flaws, but that does not mean you have to except them just for the sake of having someone, any one. Take your time and you'll find the right one, its worth it in the long run and when your ready you'll be able to turn around see that long line of men that your blinded to because of your pain.

[deeepred]

I've never been the kind of person who can't live without someone around, quite the opposite actually. I like the company of other people but I'm fine with being alone, and I would never have around someone I'm not completely convinced of just to avoid being alone.
But you insist on this and I'm sorry to tell you that,unfortunately, you are wrong: there's no line of men waiting for me. There's never been and I doubt there will ever be as I get older. Men don't like women like me but I don't want to change, I think it's not fair. So, you see, chances that I will meet someone are really thin...

[xfallendemonx]

ok at some point we are going to have to agree to disagree on this, so i@d like to that if i were single i would be very interested to further this friendship. If i didn't think you as amazing as i keep saying then why would i say it in the first place???

[deeepred]

*blushes*
well, ok thank you then. Not many people can read my blog and still think I'm amazing! I mean i keep ranting just about everything!
But I wish you all the best with your girlfriend from the very deep of my heart :)