only two weeks and 2 days until i leave for switzerland to see sebastien ... and the country of course. yah! im so excited! ive been pretty overwhelmed with classes and work this semester ... im already looking forward to a break ... and a great one at that! uhh ... i will dream of switzerland until march 8th when i can live it.

how come every guy i found myself interested in turns out to already be in a relationship? :/

i got my license ... i got my license! yahooo! no more bumming rides and not being able to drive to the grocery store or any where else i may need to. im happy and no more piss tests! yahoo! school is starting back up soon too. now all i need to do is find a new clean cool place. life is looking up!

iceland was more than i had imagined. i had a blast. it was beautiful and all of the people i met there were great. i didnt want to leave. ive been pretty down since ive been back. i have a lot on my mind. i met a guy from switzerland, sebastien, and i am planning on visiting him over spring break. my mom made me question it bc of the money ... but ( Read more... )

so i dont like my new place. it smells and it's dirty ... im grossed out every time i take a shower, there's an at least 2 month old moldy pan in the dish washer, and i feel like all my clothes smell now. it really angers me. i want out of this place. if anyone knows of anyone that is looking for a new roommate in a clean good smelling place in ( Read more... )

im happy. they kept telling me ... "once you close doors, many more will open" ... and they have. ive made and am making some really good new friends that show me the same effort. im running into a lot of rooms for rent that sound decent and reasonably priced and located. work is going pretty well. i got complimented on my good service last night. ( Read more... )

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today was a great day. lately ive been feeling down in the friends department but today refreshed my insecurity. i decided to skip work and community service and venture on campus. i ended up running into jill and ben. meeting two new people. running into paul then lizzy. talked to cinthya. hung out with steve, jake, and matt for a little bit. then ( Read more... )

im angry but im not going to be.
i lost her just like that.
we will never have what we had or anything even close.
i try to keep the flame alive
but all she does is choke it.
im saddened by her actions
but ive tried and tried ...
good-bye my love, it was wonderful.

so the second interview didnt go that well. im kind of upset. i really want this job. it was my fault; i didnt answer the doctor's questions very well ... or as well as i could have. i was nervous and have had a rough start of my day anyway. i couldnt find my birth certificate to save my life ... after many frustrated tears, screams, and feet ( Read more... )