Forever and always.

Today I quit Live Journal. Goodbye.

My haiku rawks you.

Mental illness runs in my family, what with my mother's time spent in a mental institution for an unspeakable array of mental illnesses, to my grandmother's diagnosed, but untreated bi-polar disorder. This being said.. I think I have depression. I do what I can to mask it, but alas.. I think it's true. Awhile ago, I was hit by a pretty heavy spell ( Read more... )

Update. I work a lot. I'm going to be a manager soon. That is good on applications for when I move. I'm moving next June, if all goes well. I'm saving money now. When I get a car, I'm going to deliver pizzas, which is good money. Delivering pizzas is better money than managing. Tips are good. Nic and I made Philly Cheese Steaks tonight. Sunday Nic ( Read more... )

Fuck. Can't something go my way? It's like the harder I goddamn try, the worse shit gets. I'm going to be a manager soon at the pizza place in which I work.. and when I get a car, I'll deliver pizza, too. So I'll get more on the hour when I'm in the kitchen, and then money from tips, plus good things on resume. Sounds pretty good, eh? Yeah.. then ( Read more... )

I just want today to be over. There is nothing good today.. I wish I could just sleep 'til next Wednesday, where everything today would be put behind and not mentioned. I'm not happy.

Had I made an entry all of an hour ago, I would have made a very happy entry. Everything was seeming so good... now it's not. At all. I've just found out that my health insurance will no longer cover me if I'm not in school by this Fall. This is a problem, because I don't have the money for school, nor will I by this Fall. My family has bad credit ( Read more... )

It's amazing how much less you have to bitch about once you're doing something. That or maybe you just have a lot less free time, and decide it's better spent doing things that aren't bitching. It makes sense... that people with too much time on their hands find things to bitch about... I'm quite confident I've done it on more than one occasion. So ( Read more... )

I actually enjoy having a job. I know I'm going to say I was an idiot when I said that in about a month or so, but as of now, it's nice having a purpose to get up besides having to piss. And I don't come home smelling like gross, which is a plus. Not the best job, maybe, but a job is a job, and money is money. Paychecks on 7th and 21st if I'm not ( Read more... )

Blehhhhh. Never thought I'd say it... but I wish I worked today. Nothing seems to want to go right today. And we may be moving again. Hurrah, hurrah. Of course... I've been "Moving" since I was 5... and it seldom happens. I hope today improves.. I don't think I want to look forward to work. Not that it would be a bad thing... just it would be ( Read more... )