is life a big waiting room. are we always just waiting for the worst to happen. sometimes i feel like i am. it's hard to live just for this moment. it's easy to say you are, or say you will ( Read more... )

art has never let me down. my paintings know all of my secrets. my drawings are my unconscious thoughts. it sounds bizarre and i'm sure no one understands me. but i understand me, my art understands me. when i go to sleep, it is only me there in bed. i am my most reliable friend. i am all i have at the end of the day. and that's satisfying to me. ( Read more... )

i have officially signed the lease on my very first apartment. i am going confidently in the direction of my dreams, i'm living the life i've imagined. (thoreau) and i am NOT afraid. thinking about moving in during september is a positive thought in my mind. i imagine myself waking up on a bright sunday morning to my kitten, the sound of the city, ( Read more... )

doors keep opening for me. i work hard to realize my good fortune. it's hard for me to always realize how lucky i am. i am blessed, and often i wish i weren't. i feel like i dont deserve what i've been given. but since it's been given to me i accept it, and try to find ways to give back. i've been surrounding myself with worthwhile people. i need ( Read more... )

i sure know how to procrastinate. it's good that i have a lot of studio classes, because there is where i put my time in. i can easily stay up two days in a row completing a project. but give me some flash cards and a book, and i can find a million ways to procrastinate. and i dont even have food or a television in this room ( Read more... )

i came across this today ( Read more... )

the breakfast of champions. diet coke and a very old cereal bar. why? no money to grocery shop. no time. no point, no toilet paper. or effort to clean the apartment. after staying up all night i wake up at 9 am to garbage trucks outside my window. exams back to back, and this isnt even the end of the term. three weeks. no relief. work my ass off ( Read more... )

I REALLY NEED TO GO TO SLEEP. i went on a hunt for a few pictures i remembered taking. somewhere in my house, they're there. during my hunt i uncovered every single posession that i have held dear for the past 19 years. every card. every photograph. every note, trinket, meaningful ribbon, touching piece of garbage. i've kept it all, neatly arranged ( Read more... )

I GO TO DREXEL. it's not the other way around. I PAY 45,000 DOLLARS A YEAR TO LEARN HERE. not you. whatever i say, goes. it's my time here, my head, my money, my learning experience. if i can't commute three days a week here for one class a day, then i cant. work around it. i command you. i am over paying you to do what i say. jesus ( Read more... )

i am an artist ( Read more... )